lithesashay .

VANNESS WU

2012-01-29T01:31:00.000+08:00

He is my defination of HOT

These photos are taken from the net which explains the unclear pictures. Omg totally in luv with him !!! -melts- wahaha I cry to every show he acts in because I can totally picture myself as the leading actress and feel the emotions. ='( So he has a gf already but who cares ^.^ I still keep my luv for him under the fans zone. And he used to be in f4 which is quite an old band so yeah he is OLD. but still, he mantained his adorable and handsome looks well!!

I seldom watch dramas cause I find them too boring halfway and not funny enough etc.
But my tears were flowing like running taps while watching these 2 very old dramas.
49 days and material queen

FOREVER ALONE

2012-01-29T00:17:00.002+08:00

Hi all/ myself, someone called my phone lousy just because it isn't an iphone. I called him a bitch.

Haha anyways, I'm really short tempered so fuck myself. Just met up with my primary school classmates ysterday and it was pretty awkward but still, had a fun time eating.

So I'm FREAKIN sad now. Cause my friend didn't invite me to her house to bainian. =( Ok so i'm always sad when people don't ask me out cause i'll feel #foreveralone. PLUS IM GOING TO START SCHOOL SOON SO I REALLY WANNA ENJOY MYSELF FIRST BUT SHE DIDN'T ASK ME EVEN THOUGH SHE IS MY FRIEND. =((((((( Why can't I always be surrounded with friends so I won't feel lonely? Why must they forget me... WHY DONT THEY MISS ME?

So I went to my sister's school today to have dinner with my family. Some resturant in Ngee Ann poly. Food there is average but the price is awesome (Y) 22.70$ for 4 bowls of food after student's discount.

Gonna say byebye to my brown 90$ hair in 2 days time!!! Yes why did I even dye it in the first place? now my hair is going to spoil cause i'm gonna dye it black and rebond it again. AND THEN I'LL BECOME BOTAK. TROUBLES.

Was so energetic earlier on and wanted to blog about my happy life until my friend called me and told me she went to my friend's house for bainian and initially they wanted to call me but didnt cause too many people already. So now my mood is ruined and im going back to cry. Bye

TUMULTUOUS

2012-01-26T03:28:00.002+08:00

tu·mul·tu·ous

1. full of tumult or riotousness; marked by disturbance and uproar: a tumultuous celebration.
2. raising a great clatter and commotion; disorderly or noisy: a tumultuous crowd of students.
3. highly agitated, as the mind or emotions; distraught; turbulent.

Here I am, blogging in the wee hours of the morning. So I've come across several blogs which has inspired me to think positively in life. First and foremost, A BIG HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to every human and organism. So now i'm hooked on to several songs, one of which is A THOUSAND YEARS. It gives me a very holy and spiritual feeling whenever I hear it.

Here are my resolutions for the new 2012:
1) To cure my lazy bones and start cleaning my room, doing the laundry and to stop procastinating
2) To study hard, harder than for my o lvls.
4) To improve on my engrish. CRAPPY CRAP FOR I GOT A B3 FOR MY ENGRISH AND I WAS HOPPING, BEGGING, PLEADING DESPERATELY FOR AN A
5) To grow slimmer
6) To keep my hair healthy
7) To pass my chinese
8) To be a fashionista ( please I'm a fashion disaster now T.T)
9) To be a sportswoman. ( so that I can show off that imma pro wahahaha )

Lil' space of mine.

2012-01-18T01:24:00.002+08:00

Main reason I stopped blogging is due to the lack of pictures! Have been using my lousy phone painstakingly for the past year without figuring out how to transfer pictures etc. My phone is on a major vacation, only to take ocassional messages. Back for a little update as my blogging bug is plaguing me and I seriously need to improve on my writing skills! Why? I'VE DECIDED TO WALK THE JC ROUTE. Which means failing my general paper would cost me everything.

So lets rewind to the day I started working. So I embarked on my first 'mission' which is to be a waitress, and it was nerve-wrecking. Hands and legs trembled the whole week after my first job as a caterer at the vivo 5th anniversary! OK so subsequently I quit and joined holiday inn. Met new friends. Shifted to working in a factory that manufactures red packets. China people literally became my best friends =)

So yeah I realised how tough it is to earn enough money to support myself, let alone my family.

Studying is always easier!!!! My o lvls results were released on 9th of jan and I was trapped in the 'detention' room due to my fabulous hair colour. Anyway, I was really surprised with the outcome and thank god!!!

Results ain't fabulous but it was what I thought I could never achieve. Hard work really pays off and I swear imma work harder in the next level of my education!

-drums roll-

poly: 8 , jc: 11 (raw)

Thankfully I got to deduct 2 points from my cca which gives me a 9 for L1R5!

so i've decided to put nanyang jc as my 1st chioce and st andrew's 2nd and my journey continues to what awaits me in the future.

Life.

2011-11-24T12:38:00.000+08:00

Life's pretty mundane right now, if you are in my shoes. Can't disclose what's happening to me but yea close friends should know in time to come,except its really hard for me to tell them unless they see it for themselves. What I need now is emotional support. But everyone seems to be busy with their lives. But yea 2 weeks will be gone in no time. I have to endure.

Friends XOXO. Really wanna contact my babes right now but it is the right time to tell them? And will they be there for me? After all we've all drifted so far apart.

Grad nite.

2011-11-20T00:22:00.001+08:00

Yaozi my pretty model-like friend. Always sociable and outgoing. This might be the last time we're going to see each other due to us being in different cliques but nontheless thanks for being there. =)

Zhiyu- my super skinny and idol-like friend whose keen on going jc, like me! (provided I can score well enough)

The twins! - Model-like friends also. Gorgeous and sexy ladies who never fail to laugh at my 'jokes' and sarcasm everytime

The red hair people - 4 years and 6 years of friendships respectively and yeah people whom i can trust and feel comfortable with cause i know they'll never judge me.

My babes. Dearest people who picked me up and the lowest point of my life and gave me love and warmth. Not forgetting my other clique from jurong west <3

Szechyi- the only one I know who doesn't mind lending her stationaries to me a zillion times even until I runs out of ink or tape. An easy going person

My clique in school - Love them to bits. People whom i'll never forget. People who accepted me for who I am and constantly kept a look a for me. People who cared about how I feel and are always there to lend a shoulder for me to cry on. Hope we'll stay in contact for a long time babes ^.^ Not forgetting shihui and some others who are not in the picture

And yeah super cute friend of mine - mingai~ Wasn't really close to her all these while but love hanging out with her cause she has a good personality and a really sweet and sporty girl. Hope we'll grow closer in the future if there's a chance! Not fogetting sinyee who is also good natured and fun to be with! And of cause they come as a pair ^.^

Hi all, im back to blogging and yeah hope this space is stil valid. Attended graduation night few days back on thrusday, which is 3 days after my birthday and coincidentally the last day of o levels. I used to think that studying isn't fun and after i leave my secondary school that'll be the end of it cause i'll eventually move on and meet other people so there isn't a reason to feel upset.Well after my o's did I realise the importance of studying and that having to study isn't actually that bad at all. The nights I spent drowing in books proved to be more meaningful than countless of hours of fun and watching pointless dramas. One thing I do regret is, not studying hard enough for o's. I fared pretty well for prelims but I slacked the moment the english paper started. I regretted immensly. My poa, social studies, amath and english paper was badly done. All I can blame is on myself for being complacent. What can I say? My character of being lazy and my over-confidence led to my downfall. So ya that marks the end of my secondary school life and the people i've grown so close with over the years that pictures may be exceed this page. I've learnt that there are true friends and there are people who won't judge you by your appearance and help to change you for the better. Those times we shared together in the classrooms and outside are priceless and nothing could ever replace the strength of these friendships developed even if new people were to walk into our lives.The moments we spent together will always be in living memory because nothing will ever be as true as the friendships we have with our secondary school friends.

*pictures are choosen randomly. More on my fb page.

BANG

2011-05-07T19:43:00.001+08:00

Hi guys im back to do a lil updating! I've left this space vacant for such a long time until I have forgotten I used to really love blogging and that I would go to blogger the first thing I do when I reach home everyday. But now as I type the url nothing comes out and its just like I've just accessed a new website. I've thought of rebuilding my blog and do tons of blogging shits after my o's . But yet finding back my readers is gonna be a tough one, not to mention that I don't have many readers to start with. Plus plus the re-doing of my currently ugly skin is gonna be even harder as i've been lousy with computers all along. So should I give up blogging altogether? Guess there'll be no comments cause i've just checked my blog stats and it states that the number of readers today is 5, which is kinda doubtful. I think blogger's stats are unreliable too. It should be z e r o.

Okay back to life. Now is the mid-year period for me but I just spent the whole of yesterday and today lazing around watching videos. Just started on amath and I was demoralized immediately.I couldn't solve like 3 questions out of 5? Anyway I just flunked my POA papers and combine humans!!!! Didn't manage to complete both essays for ss and geog . I did terribly for my Math and POA too, which were supposedly my best subjects. I fault my bad time management for this. My mind just blank out during exams cause i'll be so anxious and I'll check the clock every 5 seconds. Hmm ohya and I just got an ulcer. Hurts like shit yet it doesn't stop me from eating . Tumblr proved to be kinda time consuming too . I shall say it gets you hooked up onto it and tada in the blink of an eye 5 hours passed and you are gonna ready get for bed. And you'll feel stupid for sitting there the whole time, facing the computer looking at things that doesn't benifit you in any way and maybe carries a lil' purpose. God there are so many many many things for me to talk about ! I dont share them with friends cause I think it's just gonna bore the shit out of them like what it's doing to you now. Or maybe there ain't anybody reading this. But oh well I like to express my opinions and feelings sometimes just that I cant talk to myself or that'll be weird. Some videos below to sooth your ears hope you'll like it :D

Megan Lee is really good . She has a godly voice despite being only 15?

Additionally, shock-1 is really talented too ! He composes his own raps in Korean and raps like a professional

TIll then , chaos !

My tumblr

2011-04-11T20:24:00.001+08:00

HEY GUYS VISIT MY TUMBLR ! I'VE " MOVED " FOR THE TIME BEING
scentedvalley.tumblr

2011-03-29T21:22:00.002+08:00

2011-03-29T21:16:00.000+08:00

Yet you never ever take notice of me .

It is hopeless.

2011-03-25T15:42:00.002+08:00

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY TELL ME WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
Feeling so restless and irritated ever since I can't find the courage to talk to that yug . But what the heck I really need to focus on my studies for this crucial year. BUT WHAT TO DO !? I can't control my thoughts and I ended up thinking of that yug all day!! Pinch me pinch me please I need to wake up!!!

I really wanna talk to mih!!!! :'(
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Okay back to life. Hehe some really kind person still reads my blog ! Wooo okay so a short lil' update here.

Met up with my cliqueeeeeeeeeeeeee, pap,bestfy and desmond over the March break . Hehehe like a finally.

Okay and then school was good except that I got last for 1500m race , which is so disgraceful!!!
I thought I could run pretty much faster than some of the contestants there , but turns out no . :( Giving up on running already la !!! Bottom line is that I'm not good at anything !!!
So exhusted now but my mind is still wandering back to mih.. Adiossssssssssss

It's time I fight for something I want.

2011-03-24T20:39:00.000+08:00

Hello , I wanna change. I want to be better than her. Thats sounds stupid , but im that immature what to do ?

Kill me please?

2011-02-27T11:39:00.000+08:00

I just found out something shocking.
I feel so embarassed now that I want to churn my head into soil and burry it there forever.
God, can't my life get any better ?

2011-02-17T20:51:00.002+08:00

Finally I saw a glimsp of hope for scoring well for humanities . Thank god.

Hello people , back to rant again ! Absolutely loathe this school and the principal. Every morning I hear shouting and threathening, 'perfect english with precise pronounciation' being dictated . That's so sickening . I really dread going to school cause every single thing we do seem to be wrong . I can foresee the downfall of this school one day . A lil' pressure is good but not to the extent where there is utterly no freedom!! 3 words for her : chao chee bai.

Lips cracked today and its super pain !!! Blame myself for smiling too widely .
Flag day is next saturday , catch me at lot 1 !
Tomorrow is friday how fast is it !?!?

2011-02-13T20:58:00.001+08:00

Hell O everyone . It has been weeks and weeks of no msn and not hanging out much either. Guess I've become very anti-social and it's just school and me . Everytime I talk I come out with loads of boring crap instead of havin whales of laughter in the past, so I keep quiet most of the time . I'm not sure if this change is a good or bad one ; one positive thing is that my grades are improving tremendously but on the other hand I feel miserable cause I miss everybody .... Esp my clique.

Ok I should stop

Been watching lots and lots of movies on funshion , after bestfy told me there is this programme . Can't believe how noob I was to not know it ! So ya thanks a million to him cause I get to watch whatever I want hehe!

TOMORROW IS MONDAY. Which means im gonna have monday blues and NO presents ! Valentine's day is kinda meaningless for people like me who don't ever recieve presents on that day . Hope someone in the class decides to give cookies to everyone tomorrow ^.^

CIAOS !

2011-02-07T22:23:00.000+08:00

Happy chinese new year guyz ! Spent the 3rd and 4th day of the cny with awesome people and I really hope that time would just stop at there and then as I have not had so much laughter for a long time. But ya it finally dawn on me that good things would always have to go eventually . Having monday blues today and it seems like all my habits are coming back again. Life is becoming boring and draggy . ]=

3 huge pimples in between my brows due to over consumption of chilli I guess . yumzyumz .

Ohya and i'm gonna perform a skit tmr and i'll be playing the most 'important' role as I would be standing right in the middle of the platform where everybody can have a good look at me . Remember to shout my name ! Havin severe blocked nose now . God bless me .

2011-02-02T01:12:00.000+08:00

If you ever love somebody put your hands up

I had a fantastic dream juz now and I almost thought it was real . Well, I wished it was .

But these things won't happen to me I know for sure .really saddening but as long as my friends are with me now I shouldn't bother bout' those but feel happy . I shall go back to bed now and hope the dream doesn't continue itself.

Adios ~

2011-01-30T20:35:00.002+08:00

I just need someone who won't go away.

Note to self : take some photos soon
and exercise more before people begin to think i'm pregnant .

2011-01-30T13:33:00.000+08:00

Heya ! Havin a quick update before I head for the shower. It has been raining consecutively for many days now and its driving me nuts ! I love rainy days when im indoors and all coz it just makes me feel sleepy and protected but when im outside oh man its freezing cold and worst of all wet! And one thing I can't stand is coldness , i'd rather die in a desert than freeze to death . I remember crying on a trip to the mountains in china . Wtf. I can't bathe too cause it would add on to the cold even more . Gonna head out for pool with cky and the others soon . Ciaoz !

Sneak peek

2011-01-27T21:20:00.001+08:00

Due to untolerable boredness , I've decided to do some snapping in class.

Some random shots during english period. I've deemed this lesson as the best amongst all , as we get to sleep in an air-conditioned place.

The legendary chinaman .

Zongwei : ''

My eyes are barely opening everyday god knows why even though I sleep for at most 6 hours per day . Am beginning to lose all will power to be rebellious . Guess its because this is my last year in this fucking school so yeah get done with it and I am free. On a side note , I dont think im ever gonna express any gratitude for this school . It's like being trap in a cramped cage . I can't turn left and i can't turn right because either way would just hit me flat on my face. And the worst thing is im stucked inside with zoo keepers trying to tame me. So the moment im freed from this cage, I would face the principal and soong , turn my back against them and walk away . With my middle finger pointing in the air.

Useless.

2011-01-20T23:23:00.000+08:00

And today I finally realised something about myself .
I am stupid . After all the hard work i've put in , I still couldn't achieve a minimal pass . The only paper I was so confident of .
What's wrong with me . I just can't do anything right .
So many thoughts persistantly invading my mind , I dont know where to start , I dont know how to manage .

I need entertainment .

2011-01-17T22:38:00.000+08:00

Lethargic . I've been wandering around for an hour ; internet , snacks , tv . And I really need to complete my tasks for today . I can't move on from where i've stopped mainly because I dislike circles . The other alternative?
But I hate chinese .
I feel the need to improve my english so I shall type a compo out here someday .
Time to face my blank papers now and wait for midnight to arrive .
Lets try n be happy for the time being. ha ha ha .
ciaos .

2011-01-16T00:43:00.000+08:00

Favourite snack of the day :

Today was quite an exhausting day for me ! Studied in the morning , headed for tuition in the afternoon and got around to see my beloved friends at night . And I actually intended to jump and hug them but we met at a cramped mall so I thought it would be too embarassing ;p As usual , the usuals ! Felt so great to mingle and joke with them again ! Anyway Ryan treated me to pasta mania , not bad not bad ! How I wish life would regain back to where we hung out frequently last year . Life this year is plain boring and unbearable , but I have to remind myself 9 months and thats that . I have to persever . There is no room for regrets .

2011-01-14T22:31:00.000+08:00

This is how im feeling right now

My thighs and forearms are aching so badly I cant walk without looking like an ape . All thanks to 150 squats , sprints and countless push ups . And-this-sucks . So my life now is pretty much good and in order . Glad to say i've managed to meet to some of my new year resolutions ! Except for the staying awake during lessons thing . There must be some bug around making my eyes shut at the presence of socialstudies .

So this is the book I bought this afternoon and i've completed 3/4 of it!

Hence I conclude today as my off-day . Speaking of which , I almost flunk my 3rd ever amaths test which I've studied for the previous day . My morale for this subject is now 0%

Hey apple !

Take a look at my gleaming teeth . Dont cha want them ?! JK I look retarded when I smile with teeth so I only show you half of my charming face.

k I know we both look like ghosts .

Anyway I always have a tummy ache after I've eaten . Aren't my digestive system working a lil too fast !?

And after i've done my business I feel hungry again . Is it a bad or good thing ?

People are a mystery

2011-01-09T01:19:00.002+08:00

Hello , today is a fantastic day ! I was occupied all day long with open house , jurong point and tuition etc... But im really bored now . And huiwen didnt reply my text so I shall kill her on monday . I dont really ignore people unless for some kinds of people/ guys which I dislike (not hate).

People who speak extremely poor english . Not discriminating , but when they type words with no tenses and adds alot of the arh , larh , neh , leh , lorh and lots of spelling mistakes here and there . Eg . U one come narh I waits u marhh . Dont liek that nehh. I kind of feel that we would have communication problems and they would not understand what im saying plus it sounds absolutely gay !

Guys who are very secretive! This usually happens to guys who will befriend you but at the same time preventing you from knowing too much about him . Trying to reveal the least minimal about people around him . Its as though there are 100 girls he is befriending at the same time and he flirts around with every girl he knows, and if he told you that it would probably spoil he's reputation .And if you talk to him on facebook with everybody around he'd ignore you as if he doesnt know you. I mean , just tell people la why so scared ! Is having flings and secret relationships really so exciting ? Get a life man you look like a pathetic noob who can't make normal friendships.

Lastly, people who think that they are cool or they are high self opinionated . They'll always say you are lame or childish and stuffs . If they are kidding it doesnt matter but at least people who really mean it could keep their opinions to themselves ! Some people give me a feeling that I would be laughed at just because I do or my thoughts are not cool enough . Its hard to talk to them !!!!

Hello

2011-01-07T00:32:00.000+08:00

So I hope you know that I am very busy . School has started and i've decided that 12 points is too hard to get , so im working hard now . I hope . And there is something hindering me all day long and thats my hair . I have officially turned into a poodle . My new resolution : to reborn my hair ASAP . But i have no time at all !

Okay second thing , I downgraded to yuan ching primary school. Because the principal there is just too lame and she decided to turn us into bald people holding storybooks wherever we go , strapping our sandals , slinging pokemon waterbottles around our shoulders and a digimon watch . So cool . I like .

Yes you you you ! Whoever is reading this and of course my beloved friends ! Missing them badly but have totally no time to see them for now as time is really scarce and I need to manage it wisely ! :( :( Oh , and look at how fat i've grown . Just had bbq at shina's house and god the food there is overflowing . I mean its just me and her having a romantic dinner as always, but her mom prepared enough ingredients to feed a family ! Guess you know why i've become the size I am now ....

Thirdly , views dropping drastically! O-M-G . Its like there's only me reading this now ! I know, my fault for not updating and I propably wouldnt have the time to do it frequently in the future too . But please come back to check after some time or another . Dont forget this space !!

8 random things :

8 is my favourite number

I think im getting really ugly now and this is very saddening

I've been avoiding mirrors

I would never eat rice in the past yet im eating two bowls of it per day now .

Im pretty happy everyday

I must listen to music whenever im walking or taking transport .

Today is classified as a bad day cause a bird dropped it's shit on my head this morning .

Someone sms-ed me today finally after months of nothing, although I told people I dont like to message , this made me happpy secretly.

Gtg now I will update again real soon ! Adios ~ :D

2011-01-02T00:37:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!

Let me present to you a very noob picture of me ....

I digged this out to make this post a teeny weeny bit colourful .

So , how did you guys spend your last day of 2010 ?! Mine was awesome ! Although it wasnt exciting or packed with activites , but I got to see all my beloved friends , which might be the last time i see them... ): okay i just deleted a whole chuck of this post . because it is too boring without pictures ... So basically I spent my night thinking of hotpot but unable to eat it !!!!! My wish of the day was not fulfiled ): Spent the night with cock hair and face cause was sprayed at and became a snowwoman !!! Everyone headed to don's house to bathe and spend the night there . My hotpot was changed to instant noodles ): thanks alot !! Headed back at 6 and i slept for freaking few hours before I head for my tuition . Exhausted max

I hope that this year would be a happy one . And here are my new year resolutions !
To get 12 points for o lvls and get into the course I want !!! T.T (seemingly impossible )
To not sleep in class for almost all the lessons
To stop being lazy and start doing my homework
To not reborn my hair for at least the 1st month or 2nd month so my hair wouldnt spoil .
To cut down on my diet !!

I mostly I wish that I and everyone around me would be happy everyday .
And i need to buy my books its only 2 days away from school reopen !!! Any kind souls willing to accompany me!?

Ciaos ~ ^^

Sinus

2011-01-01T23:16:00.000+08:00

Have not been able to update anything as i have no pictures ! Wanted to do a proper post for ysterday's countdown but sadly to say I totally forgotten about taking pictures . Ahya but anyway there aint anymore people reading this . So imma just do it my way . okay so I guess everyone must be sleeping at home the whole day like me today ! I was sleeping , initially . Until , my usual problem occured . And now im like a zombie , eyes swollen from tiredness but forcing myself to keep awake. WHY ?

Because because because of my stupid irritating sinus ! I think most of you out there might have sinus too but mine , in my opnion, is very serious . It is life-threatening . Fyi , sinus is where there is a meat/ a small growth in your nose and in my case im allergic to dust mites, so the meat/ small growth inside will swell up like a balloon . And it blocks precious oxygen from entering my windpipe. It is like blocked nose , but it cant be blown out and it happens ALL-THE-TIME . Like a daily basis .

Okay so usually this is what happens . When I enter dreamland or maybe the moment i fall into sleep , the sinus acts up and slowly I begin to feel difficulty breathing and until a point when I am only left with a marginarly small amount of breath, I begin to hear loud buzzing noises , ok it wasnt loud , it was deafening . I panic . I need to wake up . I open my eyes , no problem . Then I tried to move my body but it-is-impossible . Im totally paralyzed from neck down . But the problem is im close to no air, close to suffocation . Try pinching your nose tgt until your lungs burn, until every ounce of thing in your body feels like exploding . You get it . And it takes an enormous amount of forcing and strength , when my body is exhausted after a whole day and refuses to move any longer totally oblivious to the danger my life is in, yet my mind is awake and helpless. Sucks . But eventually I would wake up after being a lunatic , shaking my head vigourously and somehow some part of my body moved .

So today , I got this 'dream' again . And this time I thought what if I was going to die today ? Because it seemed as though no matter how hard I try I was never gonna wake up . But luckily I did eventually . I did spray medicine but it seemed to not have effect so im not going to shut my eyes until my nose clears miraculously by itself today . Guess I know the way im gonna die in the future , in my sleep . In a horrifying way .

2010-12-28T17:19:00.001+08:00

I slept for 14 hours since yesterday.

2010-12-27T02:13:00.000+08:00

Hey belated MERRY X'MAS everyone . I was expecting chritmas to be a boring one and yea was kinda down in the dumps for the past few days . But guess what, shopping solved everything !!! Wooo got myself several things and there are soooo much more I wanna buy but i've to get hold of myself and stop spending !!

And today im gonna show you how I look a year back . If you've read my older posts you would prolly have seen this :

My first zilian pic

It was the take pictures in toliet and skinny jeans with printed tees trend

Followed by my 'spikey ponytail' period , during the end of my secondary 2 life .

And it was probably the best year cause I had everything going on well and life was rlly happy. Miss those times where taman is my 2nd home ! I would go down there every other day but now there's no meaning in heading there anymore T.T Its weird that time passed alot more slower in the past than now . Ohyes and safra was my 3rd home ! Used to be a pool craze!!!

And this was during the beginning up till the middle of this year . And this year wasnt really good with all the tiffs and going seperate ways shits but its getting better everyday now. hahaha . Guess it was a blessing in disguise. Yeah and it was the time when slacking after school was like a cool thing ? And hanging around a mall in a group with girlfriends laughing and attracting a whole lot of attention . LOL

Meeting bestfy and pap tmr, looking forward to it ! But im afraid i would be reserved and shy . Hopefully not !!! oh yes and a picture of chun boon I took ages ago ~ Found it recently. Hehehe .

Adios !

2010-12-25T04:34:00.001+08:00

Thanks alot for the christmas present. Fucker . I understand now .
Thanks for ruining my day.

2010-12-23T00:36:00.001+08:00

bouche

2010-12-21T22:56:00.004+08:00

I saw a really handsome girl at ice skating today .
She has a small built and her face was pretty . Her hair is short and silky and has long sideburns , she dresses like a guy too . Really cool and suave.
Somehow I couldnt stop looking at her .
How could anyone be this good looking ?
I wanted to ask for her number but ive no courage .
I wouldnt mind if she is my boyfriend . But im not a lesbian .
All in all I regretted not making friends with her .

Jackson's treat .

2010-12-21T00:14:00.002+08:00

Im physically exhausted . Just wish I could slump into the bed and sleep forever . Love my bed cause I have supa thick and comfy blankets to shield me from ghosts and whatever im afraid at night . Buffet at marina sqaure yesterday and I couldnt stuff any longer as usual cause of my tight fitting pants . I swore I regretted should have just jolly wore my biggest shirt and ball pants. And I just murdered an insect on my lappy's screen . Hope I wouldn't become it in my next life * cross fingers * Im just talkative today cause i just realised I haven had a real convo on the phone with anybody for like ages the last time I did was 7 months ago ? Swimming and lunch with the usual pinoeer people today. K.O immediately upon reaching home . Best sleep ever cause I had a dream. I hope to have dreams when I sleep everyday cause in my dreams I usually get to meet people I wish to see but have not contacted ever since stone age .

Guess who ? SHANNON and KAIYI . Woots ~ long time no see bro .

Smiley face with one orh kee above

A must try ! Spread it with butter and grill it . Fabulous . Regretted not having more of those .

Looks like a cock dont you think so ?

Stupid people who dip everything they eat into egss ! WTFFFFF I would never ever touch eggs they taste so disgusting!

DIY ice creams :D

Yam ice cream kaiyi made .

See this kaiyi , I always have a sense of familarity when I see him . I think we might be siblings in our previous life . Or maybe its just because ive known him for a long time . I thought we are not going to talk to each other again but here we are ! :D okay lame .

Glupping sweet saturated stuff down . Ekkkkk !

Jackson and michelle :D

Cracking an egg

Solified egg like a disgusting !!!!! Argh egg stinks !!!

Pity the people who are gonna clean this they are never getting the frozen shit off .

He won this lil doggy for his gf

Comparision - cute plastic bag and cute dog

Ice skating and chalet the day after . Am so glad I get to see my love ones so much although this hols is gonna end soon ): But i shall cherish every moment spent with them till the end ^^ Gonna meet up with bestfy and rest next week too ! Thank god for all the happiness. (:

ciaos

Universal studio

2010-12-19T15:14:00.002+08:00

Woooo i finally got a look at universal studios and..... it was seriously dissapointing . The place was smaller than i expected . But , didnt get to go to the disney land castle cause the we bought the night tickets only . I want to go visit it soooo badly!!! Ahh it looks like fairyland from a distance with the lightings and all~ Everbody says I look supaaa dark now like some shit ): Thanks ah dragon boat . Dont mind my pictures cause my face looks like cock that day . %^@#$^!8

Amanda and shubing was doing much of the camera work that day . So didnt get a chance to take much pictures with them ! Anyway I found my acids drops in one of the candy shops there but it was fucking 10 bucks !! Regretted for not buying it now cause it was out of stock the last time we went to sticky store ): I not pregnant ok but im in love with sour stuffs! except tomatoes.

Trying to cover my fat face as usual but failed !

Vannie and kengan ^^

Ohyes and ryan promised to treat me to cows junior cause he's working there ! Shall find a day when im broke and go there for a free meal :D fyi, I really banged his head hehehe .

Supposed to have mist coming out lor but we waited for some kids to finish playing . And when they did there was no more mist coming out :@ I jumped on the circle circle thing and the water splashed on ryan . Hahaha .Then realised the water is black. Yuck ! congratulations to him .

This small baby is super cute i tell you !!!! Aiyer the face like so chubby only !!!!! He fell down and wailed afterwards , so scary not cute anymore.

Copycat .

And the final part not to be missed ! Fireworks!!! The fireworks were amazing and super deafening !! Everytime one let goes there'll be a BOOM and my heart also thumps with it !!

Visted the hershey's shop afterwards and bought some chocolates ~ Shina told me that there is an ingredient in chocolates that would make you happy after eating them but I dont feel anything when I eat it !

Just gain more weight I guess? Went back to vivo and gosh the queue to take the tram back was seriously looonggggggg . I swear my jaws dropped when I saw the sea of people . Bought 2 breezers and stuffs before heading back . All in all it was a great day! heading out for free dinner by jackson ltr on ! AND I WANT ICE SKATING PLZZZZZZ!!! ):

I am blessed.

2010-12-16T22:37:00.001+08:00

Guess what , I've totally fallen i love with ice skating ! Woooo although its my second time playing this sport but I think I progressed pretty well and its really fun ! My foot got blisters all around cause of incorrect skating position , but I was afraid I would fall!

Here we are at Kallang ice skating ring . The tickets were super exp - 16.50 for 2 hours . And that includes the time taken for the machine to re-smoothen the ice ! Not only all , we overshot the time we were supposed to leave by about few minutes and the personnel asked us to pay $4 each, extra ! Wa seriously pekchek. Blame the jurong east branch for closing down !! They charge like way cheaper and more hours over there ! Luckily calvin helped us retrieve our $$ back or else I would never go there again .

Finally caught 'hello stranger' . It was one of the best shows i've ever watched ! Super haliarious and a sad ending . Hate the ending seriously , I expected it to be a happy one !!! ): Anyway, everyone just go and watch it !!

Finally poly exams are coming to an end!!!! Been waiting for this day ~ Means going to USS ,ZOO and many moreeeeeeee with the whole clique and hopefully would be able to meet bestfy and pap and the rest ! hao kai xin ! ^^ But im gonng run out of money real real soon anybody wanna donate ?? keke

okie adios ~

2010-12-12T21:00:00.000+08:00

Had a team talk ystd and well it was really shocking to see the seniors letting all out . I think we have literally gone mad crying our hearts out . But who wouldnt after seeing our girls leave one by one... LOL But I felt really awkward after that I always feel dam paiseh after having heart to heart talks !

Was super super exhausted after training and doze off after bathing = late !!! Was late for about an hour (guilty) was supposed to meet amanda, shubing and gerald . But gerald couldnt make it again . I think fate doesnt want me to return him his 50 bucks . Zhengyang joined us along the way . Trained down to plaza sing and the god dam show was sold out of tickets!!! Urghhh all our plans were ruined. After wasting a good deal of time pondering where to go , we finally headed to cine . Wanted to catch a thriller but it was sold out too ! wtfffff. Ended up with old harry potter instead. I thought the show would be okay but it turned out to be a total waste of my 20$$ and super boring x100000 . I swear i regretted like hell cause I wasted 2h and 30 of my life on nothing. Everybody's stomach were growling like nobody's business and it is all my fault . ):

Shubing and boyf. ^^

unglam1

unglam2.

Here's smth for soh shangyi :

Hi bestfy ! I remember the first time I met you , I thought you were gay and I was really terrified of you! But after you danced bboy infront of me I began to doubt what the others told me. Luckily in the end you werent ! And when you saw I didnt interact much with the others, you came and talk to me and accompanied me throughout . That's what bestfriends are for right ? Remember TLSY ? ^^ Although we only know each other for only a month or so but you were very friendly and kind towards me this whole time. Just wanna say im really glad to have known you guys thanks for being an amazing friend and hopefully we wouldnt drift in the future. Ohya and pleaseeee cut bangs again and you owe me doughnuts!!! Hope I can get to see you soon ! ;)

Clarke quay .

2010-12-10T02:18:00.003+08:00

Saw your bestfriend sleeping in his house . Seriously , what made him so tired?! He slept till he fell on a lady's shoulder . You should see his expression, enjoying himself to the maximum . (Y)

Moshimoshi ! Basically , had this double workout day the day before . Headed for a swim at je sports complex with william , yh , chinaman and nizam ! Its been ages since I last went . Prolly about 1 year ago . Had a shot for everything except the 2 long slides ! I have a phobia for being enclosed in small places ! Looking at that long circle container just makes me feel suffocated .

Oh yes and I finally witness someone drowing !! We were at this huge pool where you have the waves and waterfalls , when I suddenly heard the guard blew his whistle . A guy was using his legs to grab hold of the float while he struggled to climb up the float, couldnt see his face though it was underwater.

Had a supa fun time with them cox they kept throwing me into the water . As in like flung into the air and then plunge downwards. Shiok max. After the swimming session , went back and called shina and dominic down for bball . Had a tiff with chinaman and seriously i wonder if he's a guy . Fancy getting mad over trival matters . I even apologised many times he was still angry ! Anyway , hope things are fine now.

Well, finally met up with amanda and shubing! Like a longgggggggg time never see them already ):
Im just staying at home sleeping day after day . Got my mouse and several items at jp . Very satisfied! Hehe . Hmmm headed to Chinatown afterwards for some koiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.

Got a treat from shubing . And I swore , it tasted really sick . The first mouth was nice but consequently it just made me feel like puking . Rated down !! (N)

Some random bird .

LOL wth is she trying to do !?

Tried some 'artsy' shots recommanded by shubing . Supa paiseh lor like a million people were starring at us . Some more so many ang mos !!!! Ahhhhh . I absolutely wish to become an ang mo cause they are just so sophsicated and it just makes me feel that I would belong to the shang liu she hui ( upper class society )

I just couldnt get the heart right man I've tried it like sooooo many times -.- And dont I look like my nationality was china ? LOOK AT THOSE SHARP EYES AND FAT CHEEKS oh no .

Haha this is supposed to look 'natural' but turns out really fake . Lmfao .
If you noticed, I have buck tooth . Not 1 but the whole row ! fml. LOL

She mo lian lai de step yi ge cute !

Acting demure .

I told you i look like china !!! LOL

Shubing says that having a double chin means that you are very happy and you fu qi (fortunate.)
crap . Imagine how many skinny people are there on earth , means all of them are leading miserable lives.

Look like japanese girl hor . LOL Sad to say I cant ever cut bangs or my face will look even more like china .

Act like it's our first time going to clarke quay . Must take so many pictures LOL!

Amanda's face like want to fight . Haha

Thats alll ! okthxbai ^^

Round worms

2010-12-08T02:03:00.002+08:00

Haven been heading out these few days. It is either training or tuition on every other alternate day and sleeping the rest of the afternoon away! what a nice way to spend my holidays this year T.T And oh yes these few days i've been having terrible stomach aches and abnormally enormous appetite. Suspected that there was a round worm living in my tummy but seems like all the symptoms are gone today ! But i didnt bite my nails so i think it shouldnt be the case...

This is how those disgusting heinous creatures look like . white and slithery . Urgh .
You know when some people were young they would always bite their nails or scrape off the dirty shits under their nails using their teeth ? This is the main entry point for those worms to enter your body ! They can also enter through your skin , provided that they must be very tiny to be able to do so . They would begin as worm eggs living in dirty environments ; etc mud and soil have plenty of them, and then get trapped under your nails or stick to your fingers . And afterwards you might lick your fingers or stuff it inside your mouth for no reason, i dunnoe . Scary thing about this is, it multiplies rapidly in your intestines!!! Soon your whole stomach would be infested with worms .

some people delibrately consume these worms in order to slim down !!! But this is strictly a NONO! These worms would consume on the food you ate , absorb your nutrients in your intestines and feeds on it too !! Therefore you will experience sever stomach aches and loss of weight . The lack of nutrients and starvation would lead to death eventually . A solution is to seek a doctor immediately and you might either take some medicine to pass out the worms with your motion or go for operation to remove those worms . Eeeek !

WARNING:
gory contents below , do not watch if you puke easily .

DO NOT BITE YOUR NAILS ANYMORE! OR JUST KEEP YOUR HANDS CLEAN!

My past .

2010-12-03T03:18:00.003+08:00

I should be in bed by now due to my training early next morning , but just couldnt get myself to sleep. Things have been going on in my mind and I've lots to say but on second thoughts , writing that one post might affect someone, so i've shelved that idea for the time being . Instead, reading through my past blog posts amuse me and I realised that time really flies . It was just a second ago that everything on good old earth seemed so plain simple and naive to me while in the next second im fretting over my poor results, how I am gonna cope with o levels next year and so much more. See the thing is, this has been really a hectic year for me . And in a postive or negative way im not sure . I used to suffer from something called inferiority complex. Where I would question myself everyday why was I born to be ugly and with a body chock full of lard. I would plead with god to make me insanely beautiful one day and perhaps discover that a thousand of guys have been secretly in love with me all the time. But I had this thought, since I am not beautiful and weigh marginarly under the overweight category, people would start to despise me. So, I thought that the only thing that could save me was to be amiable, be kind and hold no grudges towards anybody. To be always cheerful and positive on the outside. I wanted people to like me in personailty wise. I would be so delighted when someone confides in me. Really silly but yeah at least I am important to someone for that period of time. However I would cry almost everyday at home till there was a point I suspected I was suffering from depression and death seemed appealing. At that point i wished I had the courage to run out to the road, get banged by a car and get over with life. Then the turning point of my life came. It was a week before my dragon boat race. My coach spoke to the whole team regarding health aspects , including what to eat and what not . It was then he pinpointed me and said I should cut down on my diet. It hit me hard. It was so humiliating to be indirectly be called fat futhermore it was me and only me , a girl among so many of the other guys too. I sat there, burried my head in my bag and cried bitterly, it was a wonder that I didnt suffer from heat stroke . I made up my mind to change . I ran around the park every week , with the fastest runner in my school at that point of time. I would only eat a meal or none at all sometimes . I delibrately starve on days when I have training so that I could burn more calories. I reborned all my disgusting waves and bought new smaller-sized clothes . And then you have it, I was a complete changed person. My friends couldnt recognise who I was at the start of secondary 2. It felt so good and it was probably the best thing that happened to me . That is why I have a urge to to help oversized people reduce weight . Im not mocking at them nor despising them . But I would always recall how dire I felt back then . I wonder if they feel the same way too. Woooo this is by far the longest post i've written in a long time, hope my english is not too poor ! Im not sure if any would want to read this chunk of words. But those who managed, could you please comment about this entry on my formspring. And tell me if this is too boring or should I continue with the story of my secondary 2 and 3 life? Thanks alot !!

Ignorance is bliss.

2010-12-01T00:54:00.002+08:00

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. Im forcing myself to keep awake cause i just finished a bowl of spicy instant noodles. And I really cant fall asleep now or i'll find myself looking like this tmr.

Haha kinda gross though ;x

My eyes are seriously closing .... But lets blog first! I realised that whenever I dont update, my readers increases. Having seen that gives me motivation , but after I blogged, my readers decreases dramatically. Irony or what ! Or maybe nuffnang isnt credible enough. Not saying that there is an astonishing amount of people reading my online journal, but blogging seems to be part of my lifestyle now and I hope to share with everyone what im going through everyday .

Woooo so yeah people pls click on my adverts if there's any cause I seem to be clicking on it myself all the time! The money just wont increase ya know -.-

Had tuition in the morning and was really lazy to head out aftermath . But I did eventually . And guess what greeted me when I arrived at safra . THERE WERE LIKE ONLY 2 PERSON plus zong wei . All of them fang fei ji !!! Everybody decided not to turn up last minute. What is this man ! It was their good friend's birthday and they couldnt even bother to turn up!! Spammed called and eventually forced them out.

Went for pizza hut again !!! And zong wei only spon us pathetically 20$ off the bill! -.- Was hopping for more . yh, chinaman, sy and jy joined us afterwards and caught Rupunzel 3D ! Supa naise!!! And at that time I really hoped that I could be in a fairytale too. I mean compare boring old earth with wonderland . Everything seems so facinating and best what , it always has a happy ending . After movie everyone zao home ! Left chinaman , yh and I . And as u know how fat is chinaman, you can guess we went to eat again . Mos burger. And seriously im fantasizing about their frozen strawberries right now ! Arcade like a fun only! Ohya and going USS ON FRIDAY WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

I wasnt late for training today like finally! Cause i woke up every 5 minutes to check the time .

To trust or not to trust.

2010-11-29T20:20:00.001+08:00

It been long since I updated anything about my life andddddddddddd my routine has been revolving around eating , sleeping , training and eating . Oh and I got to know a bunch of wonderful people, if you think im refering to you, it is you. All thanks to them my life is no longer oh-so-boring . So yeah thanks dudes! (:
And not forgetting my clique for being there during my lowest point of time, although some guys always pangseh. -.- SO CHEK ARK ( learn from bob)
So ystd the occasion was , shubing's birdday !

Me.

Headed to pizza hut for lunch this time round . The chicken soup was supa delicious but the pasta was so-so lor . But no choice, I am a chilli craze so whatever I eat it has to be spicy ! I should have ordered the creamy speghetti !!! It was way nicer than my dish . ):

Decided to go town for shoppingggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg ! But they didnt tell me in advance and all of us dressed up like one cock ! excluding birdday girl .

Amanda, shubing, ryan and gerald. Standing so far apart, like weird only!

And guess what ryan bought for meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee , sour sweets !! My fav .

I aint pregnant ok . Hate sweet stuffs so i'll never eat sweets except for those .

But it wasnt sour enough for god sake !!!

Walked all the way to fep and shopped !!! The prices werent cheap i swear . Finally got a sactisfactory pair of pants and tank ! Ryan said the material wasnt good but who cares our legs were aching like hell already!!!

Headed back to jp and to icing room ! But , the cashier said that the cake orders end at 9 and we past it by 30 mins already , so all the excitement came down to nothing !! Bought this supaaaa cute ginger bread man and a mini chocolate cake.

Honestly the taste sucks to maximum !!! Except for the icing sugar part ? But I dont like to eat icing sugar cox it has a smell .

Woots and our cakeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. We took a candle but actually forgotten about the lighter !! And ryand and gerald left to find their friends alrdy so , no flame .

Pathetically sitting on a singular bench . Sweet birthday girl ^^ oh yea and I have been suffering from indigestion for yesterday and tooday !! sucky bloated feeling in my stomach. ):

Heading out to celebrate zongwei's birdday tmr , suddenly realised there are soooo many november babies !

To lie and not to lie.

2010-11-26T18:59:00.002+08:00

Hi. Wooooooooooooo im trouble free now thank god things turned out good ! ^^

2010-11-21T21:22:00.000+08:00

went out with les todayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy . B-o-r-e-d .
Training tmr wooooooooooooooooo getting darker. I need to gain back my stamina !
Recieved ferrero rocher frm choowhaeeeeeee and necklace from bobby that day thankslot I wanna meet jueying, yeeling and jeremy for my present !! Ok random hehe bye .

TLSY (:

2010-11-18T14:32:00.001+08:00

Hi guyz! Moodymoodygrul95 is here. Why-am-i-always-moody. Maybe its not moody . Its smth worse than that . Talk about that later. Meet up with kaiyi, cleb, zhaohui, fazi , aaron and phone on monday . Like finally uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh . But i felt pretty weird cox too long never talk alrdy. And guess what ? We ran all the way to woodlands just to eat soul garden ! And that friggin buffet cost me $15 when I only ate like $2 worth of food. So yeah money grabbers.

The beginning of the barbeque. And I was stupid enuff to eat one of the fishcake thing raw until they told me it wasnt cooked yet.

16 ALREADY STILL PLAY THIS . Haha
Went into arcade for bball again and I topped up 10$ into phone's card AND IT GOT LOST MIRACULOUSLY. omgwtf should have just top up like 3 or 4$ only!! Anyway trained back and went to safra for pool . Chanced upon many friends unexpectedly. In the end zhaohui and I vs aaron and kaiyi . They got owned (: i think. Jeremy came over cox I think he was @ safra too . Aftermath went jp walk walk and went to meet desmond,reydon and ruisong @ pinoeer. Slacked awhile then went home .

On tuesday went to polyclinic early in the morning to take my nose medicine for my sinus ): Met les in the afternoon and headed to bugis . Walked until my legs were on the verge of breaking when I saw a pants that was acceptable and les said I looked nice in it . BUT when I went home and tried it on it looks like smth i picked from the garbage. Oh fml . And the price isnt cheap either considering it is sold in bugis. :@ At night recieved a call from david and found david, yaohui and liangjun outside my house ! Stalker la sial !! haha . Went down to bball but it was drizzling abit . Chinaman joined us after his dinner .

Met desomond, reydon, ruisong, clauson and WAIKUN @ ljs for lunch yesterday! And waikun seriously look like yongquan keke! I thought he had a younger brother but turns out no ... Went to cineleisure to find bestfy , shangyi aftermath . Had a small misunderstanding cox I thought he is a gay and scare myself but he's not in the end lah . Lucky plaza for pool and all were pros lor , compared to me . *shakes head* Walked over to fep for dinner and slacked all the way . Was having fun all thanks to bestfy and waikun for accompanying me if not I would have been lonergirl alrdy . ): Trained home without bestfy cause he does not live in jurong area!! So i went to find desmond !! :D happy girl ttm leh ! ^^ Hehe its a secret secret ! Everybirdy bid goodbye eventually . I think I didnt even say goodbye cox i was rushing home. Sad eh . k lah bye.

It might be the last time im seeing him . Thats why my emotion now is like a mix of sad plus bitter plus empty. But thats fate I guess. I've to accept it. I think im going crazy seriously FML!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just kill me pls i wish i wasnt myself. But I still have a memory of him at least . Be contented man tienling be contented.

It's torturing, I feel like screaming .

2010-11-16T11:34:00.000+08:00

ystd wasnt rlly a big blast however, I still had fun and most importantly get to see everyone again !!! Actually my one wish before my birthday is to get my clique to get tgt on my birthday, i mean it is rlly hard to meet them all, probably once or twice per month .
So, headed to swensens for lunch and free ice cream ~ Had my softshell crab speghetti , way better than the one I had @ pepper lunch previously LOL.

I swore I regretted wearing that clothe cox it made me sweat like nobody's business ! Supa thick cotton!
And guess whatttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt ! Les gave me JERRYYYYYYYYYYY !!!!! <3
Friggin kwettttttt manzxczxc !!!! Ahah Im gonna bring it everywhere I go :X

Down to arcade for bball. Laughing like mad. Its been long since I played bball and my hands feel itchy!
Halfway, some pang-seh-kia abandoned me to join his other friends !! HURMPH on my birdday somemore . Thanks !

Didnt have any idea where to head to , so finally decided to settle @ shubing's house . Slept awhile and slack awhile before heading home .

sorry people this post is kinda boring cox i've totally no mood to do anything now .
I'll post another tonight .

HAPPIE 15th BIRDDAY!!!!!

2010-11-14T02:11:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TIENLING ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !! :D

click on my adverts of there's any, take it as giving me money money for my bd pressie, thanks !!! :D

Busy girl is me !!

2010-11-08T23:20:00.002+08:00

Ollio !

Yesterday was amanda birthday ! Okie , anyway was intending to stay @ home cox we werent celebrating for amanda this year . But , was grocerry shopping halfway when I recieved a msg from shina asking me to watch mega mind with her and chinaman ! Excited me rushed home , had a nap and overslept. Decided to catch the 5 o'clock show then . Went over to benten to say hi to jiayun first ! Cool lor she gets to work there, when my friends and I had desperately searched for a job last week in jp and every job requirement was 16 and above !! :@ But nevermind about the job first , I shall find one after o's . Wanted to find reydon but oh so sad he wasnt there. Bumped into kengan, waiting for his girlfeeee outside toliet ! Was supa excited to see his girlfeee but all I saw was her back view .... Went to buy the tickets and I wasnt quite eager to watch a cartoon. But it proved me otherwise ! The movie was quite touching and unexpectable , for what I think. Headed down to pinoeer to eat aftermath and gaint to gaigai . I've no idea why gaint. Probably its the only biggest shopping place in the vicinity.
Anyway, today was remedials and remedials !! Sleepy to the maximum . ): Kopitiam for my favourite spicy food and I think the noddles have poison cox my hair kept dropping after eating it up to now and my whole bed is filled with hair , sound gross. AND I FEEL LIKE VOMITING NOW , MY STOMACH IS VERY UNCOMFORTABLE.

Oh yes , and it was due to boredom that i've decided to post the "Like this and I'll post on your wall...." blabla thing And now im so freaking busy thinking of what to post until I've no time to do my hw!!! Okie I was dam happy at first cox it was really seldom people would like my status and now there were 67!!! Hehe ! But here comes the doing part --> ): shall complete it over the next few days so sorry for the inconvience . HAHEHO. Those who read up to here , You are awesome man (Y) okthxbai love ya all (:

Happy day ah sia .

2010-11-05T23:52:00.004+08:00

OH HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII ~ Did my eyes scare you ?! hehe . Looks as though its popping out !

Today is deepavali as everyone know but I didnt get a chance to go shankari's house so went to shubing's house instead !

Down to jurong point as usual and accompanied them to buy several stuffs for their friends . Oh and I love jerry so much !!!!!!! As in tom & jerry's, jerry . It's supa adorable please !!!! Went to mini toons just to buy their sweets there . As much as I love the sweets over there, i realised that the machine is a cheat ! When I weighed on the scale it stated 1.25$ but the cashier ended asking me to pay 1.40$ instead! But just that few cents so just let them off lah hrumph!

Headed to shubing's new house and ate lunch over there . Tried out some liquor and accidently poured like 1/4 of the cup . Bitter to the maximum !! Added massive amounts of meiji coffee flavoured milk until the taste was acceptable . Imagine the fats level in meiji milk ! As far as I know meiji is a non-fat free nor healthier choice milk . Nothing . But that was the only drink at her house which can be used as a mixer . Planned for our dinner and decided on fried egg with sausages and potato soup . Went to boon lay pasar and bought the ingredients, less than 5 bucks !

The cooking part was fun *thumbs up*
Instructions to a meal for 4 people , provided all of them are on a diet . :
Prepare 5 sausages, wash and chop them into small pieces . Beat 3 eggs.
Add oil and garlic to the frying pan until it pops and turns brown . Allow the 3 eggs to lay in the pan until one side of it is golden yellow . Put in the sausages . chop up and fry the mixture randomly like char kuey tiao .
Peel a potato and chop a carrot. Remove the skin of an onion and tear it into slices.
Fill the pan with water until desired amount .
Allow the water to boil before adding the ingredients . Add salt . Add sashimi sauce .
Let it boil for 15-20 mins .
And the results is , YUM YUM YUM!
keke I think I can write a book alrdy !

Okie so after dinner camwhored andddddddddddddddd slept awhile chat awhile ~ and then home lo.....
and next sunday is my birdday ! 14 november, remember ah !!!!

I am strange .

2010-11-04T19:46:00.003+08:00

There are so many things going on in my head now, I cant think straight . I know my heart is failing. My tears are falling . I've no idea what the reason is . Maybe it's because I feel that nobody understands me I've so many things to tell , yet none will understand . They'll think im wrong , im a bad influence . People who made me so happy before , stopped talking to me . Maybe im just that unimportant. Who can I turn to now ?

GL, I _ you? ):

2010-11-02T23:51:00.000+08:00

So todayyyyyy is phone's birdday ! Headstart in the morning as usual . And I fell asleep in geog class as usual too !!!! I just seem to stay awake during geog class no matter how early I sleep the day before . And and I really like people to play with my hair or graze my skin continuously coz it makes me feel like sleeping! Hehe When I was young my mum have to do that everyday if not i cannot fall asleep! Im so gonna hire a maid when I grow up and ask her to do that *excited* =D

Was supposed to meet cleb and the rest @ 6 but was late as i took a nap and overslept =( Met jeremy @ lakeside then went to je to find them as they were buying the cakeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Unfortunately got screened by police on the way and it took us ages to reach imm. Finally saw kaiyi cleb and daniel, like half a fucking year never see them already !!!! okie so chat chat laugh laugh like in the past =D keke . Brought the cake up and intended to supprise phone .

And phone mum's hair is the style ! Red colour one ! Everyone went to hide while I stood outside with his cake . When he saw me his face was like stone only lor nt happy to see me is it !! :@ Then when everybody came out and sang the birthday song he looked like he's gonna cry awwwww.

Forced phone to wear the shirt I bought for his bd pressie . Like kuazhang only lor go downstairs wear until so nice ! LOL

Was suppa full but stilll ate macs cox we had no place to go so I suggested macs . Felt like my clothes were gonna burst ! And they were evil enough to force to finish the whole meal by myself!

After some slacking bused home with jeremy . I realised im dam anti social !!! Lazy to socialize ! Therefore everybody who msg me or chat with me on msn, I would take hours to reply. Please don be so dao tienling !!!! :@

I need a break pls .

2010-10-31T23:25:00.003+08:00

Hey a secret to tell you guyz my parents are treating me like one fucking dog trying to lock me up at home . I've tried my best to control my temper and try to talk to them nicely and i've devoted most of my time studying now even if it's the holidays but they-just-dont-want-to-see-me-happy. I guess that'll mean war . Im so tired at this always fighting always screaming. I dont want to be me . I hate it . I want to be you.

Basically met up with darling , jj , gerald and kengan . Headed round to the arcade cox of gerald . Don really like being in star factory cox it is always jam packed and felt like an extra while waiting for gerald to finish socializing . Lunch @ subway and drank their 3.20$ mushroom soup that was made up of gold . Lol . Everything was good except the price !

Arena for pool aftermath . Joking all the way !! I love it when our clique is tgt! Maybe nt all today shubing and ryan cmi :( Laughing like mad and guailan-ing each other scolding each other . hehehe those are my wonderful friends ! As usual my pool-ing skills were like lousy only! I seldom touch the cue ever since last year buttttttttttttttt still more pro then them lah ! Hehe i like to step one pro. Gerald left halfway to bugis to flirt with some girls . Flirt flirt flirt ! _l_ hate people like him !! But whad to do my friend whad . Went back to jp with the rest after pool anddddddddddd kengan went to find his friend working @ singtel . Andddd the rest I don think I should elaborate on it ! So after some things happened , went for pepperlunch. Brought some spaghetti for 10 $ which only served me few strands of pasta and some tasteless scallops !! totally ewwwww to the maximum and my $$$$$$$ . T.T okay tienling is behaving rlly like a spendthrift auntie but who cares I need monehhhhh to buy phone and amanda's presents as their burfday are on this week ! Pokgai liao lahhhhhhh . After dinner met up with shina to accompany her buy dinner then homed aloneeeeeeeee .

3 remedials tmr . Gettin so bored . what to do ?

Happy halloween!

2010-10-31T00:10:00.006+08:00

I NEED MY TRAINING ASAP . My mum bought a scale home today and I almost fainted . I've never been this heavy before and I thought I would never reach it . But I friggin did it today . I've been eating a meal plus some junk along the way everyday, advoiding carbohydrates competely and this is whad I GET .

Im lovin basketball now ! Anyone who wants to play can contact me provided its @ pinoeer bball court !
Went to study with huiwen today @ jp lib and to P.M macs in the evening. Done 6 amath questions in total ! Giving myself some slack for now as it is only the beginning of the hols there's still a long wayyyyyy to gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

Wanted to play bball aftermath so dialled for zhendong and he said next time cause all the lights were off already and he wanted to go eat !!!! Was so disappointed ! =( And there has also been a thing thats brooding me . I saw a friend of mine just now or rather an acquaintance . He was with a girl. I told huiwen that I saw a friend, and she said that seemed to be his girlf. And in an instant I felt so upset it was like my whole mind went blank and my heart seemed to ache ? But I just smiled at her and shrugg my shoulders . Seriously I was shocked at what I was feeling . I've not taken interest in anyone for quite some time now, including him. Why am I behaving like this ?

I am determined .

2010-10-29T00:47:00.007+08:00

Hiiiiiiiiiii im supa exhausted now and I have amaths remedial @ 7 hrs from now but still , I have the urge to blog ! well , firstly got my report book today and it-was-absolutely-horrible. I may have fared acceptable to most of you as i got promoted to sec4 fortunately but I am quite disappointed in myself .

For the overall results for the year :
english language : 52 (c6)
chinese language : 52 (c6)
Additional math : 50 (c6)
Math : 67 (B3)
Science (phy, chem ) : 60 (b4)
Combined humans (ss, geog) : 44 (e8)
Pinciples of accounts 58 (c5)

Class position : 34/42
Level position: 90/128

Promotion status : promoted to S4 express

L1R4 Aggregate : 24 [sec 3] <----- L1R4 Aggregate : 8 [sec 2 ]
L1R5 Aggregate: 32 [sec 3] <----- L1R5 Aggregate : 10 [sec 2]

Percentage : 54.7 %

Conculsion : Studies would be my top piority from now on .
Aim : Get top 10 in class.

I'll come back to check half a year later I guess . I can achieve this and I will.

I guess the only thing left to be proud of is my physcial fitness results . But whats the point?
And I just got grounded fml.

Okie my eyes are getting all blurry now gotta go . I'll be back tmr for another post !
Today marks the start of a new beginning for me . Towards my new goal . 2 mths time left to catch up on all my sec 3's work . Enough ? I hope so .
And thanks to that one person who cheered me up . You certainly encouraged me alot (:

I have night blindness

2010-10-28T00:29:00.001+08:00

Hi guyz it has been long since I posted anything did you miss me ?! hehe anyway the last post was just some bullcrap I made up! I did injuired my knee but not fractured it . Andddddddddddddd I headed overseas for a week - taiwan and hongkong . well , went with a tour group and made a friend but all in all it wasnt really fun . Pictures in messy orders due to fabulous blogger who hang dead on me whenever i try to shift my pictures wtf.

some trditional duck stall - my family loves to eat meat alot .

Hotel in hongkong with a mini 'kitchen'

Railway train in hongkong . 3 stops to get to the MRT and many more stops to our destination . Traveling there is really tired and time consuming !

Night falls quickly too . Around 530-6pm i think . There is actually a time difference of 2 hours although the singapore and hongkong's clock states the same time.

Famous goose eating place

Tried to find bubbletea but ended up with only this healthy dessert instead .

I think this lady look really alike to me . Didnt manage to take a clear shot of her but she has those fierce china woman look like me !

Yay cable car in hongkong

Mummy and sister doing a weird pose !

Love starbucks coffee!

A model of a wishing tree? Like those always shown in ancient china dramas !

Climbed 16 storeys up to visit the mighty buddha!

Mighty buddha !

Some dim sum on the last day of our trip

Hot mud bath in taiwan, which water originated naturally from moutains, claimed to be good for skin but the water was piping hot! I was afraid my skin would get burned away

A picture of an old man who fell down in the mrt in taiwan . Supa pitiful! I was sitting digonally infront of him and saw how he fell exaxctly!

Hands outstretched and fell helplessly backwards like a tortise. Even worst he couldnt get up! Finally with the help of me and another girl he came to his feet - trembling.

Raining heavily and winds were howling which overturned our umbrella tops and nearly blew my sister off her feet completely ! Few days ltr we were then made known that the border up ahead which I took picture of actually had a typhoon going on and we were quite close to it!

Milky snow strawberry ice which melts in your mouth into sweet rich foam the moment you suck onto it . Simply declicious ! Singapore should sell this too guranteed to make big bucks !

3 bedded room for me , sist and ahma

Went up onto the mountains in taiwan to stay for a night and this was a walk in a rainforest

Pitiful dog which was locked up in a tiny cage only able to take 1-2 steps maximum! It couldnt bark but only kept whining as though it was crying! It looks really cute like a teddy bear , I wonder how does those shop owners bear to lock it up in such a small place with poor hygine?! If it was me who had been locked up in such a small place I would have probably gone crazy within 2 days. omg why ?! AHHHHHHHHH I really love dogs !!!

Took a train to watch the sunrise early in the morning . But it was a big mistake as it was freaking cold and I was feverish the last night furthermore I couldnt see a single thing as there was so much fog around !

Wrapped myself up in 7 pieces of clothing and layers and layers of all my pants including muffins and a shawl but I still feel fucking cold !!! Plus I totally couldnt breathe due to my sinus and I was trembling and head pounding throughout the night . Worst trip ever.

A bullet train which takes us from one city to another in fast speed .

Met amanda, shubing,gerald and kengan ystd to pass them their pressies ! Les also gave me a present she brought from universal studios, choco sunflower seeds!! <3 hehe. im lovin it ! Ate lunch tgt and went to buy slippers cause mine were really flat till I could feel the floor when i walk ! Its been over a year and its time I change it !
Around evening everyone headed home . Les and I slacked awhile before walking home . Reached pinoeer and saw shina and zhendong unexpectedly . Accompanied them to buy drinks and heading back to the bball court as they were playing bball initially . Got to know 3 guys and played several matchs . The atmosphere was fking funny as they were jokers! Laughed and kept coughing like one mad woman until they thought I have asthma ! Shina and zhendong were real pros lor even 3 tall guys couldnt beat them and even with such a lousy bball player like me on the team , we totally trashed them . hehe . Around 9 40 they accompanied zhendong to buy dinner while shina and I went back . Headed to shina house to eat aftermath as my family members dont ever cook so I have nth to eat !

Okie I think i shall stop here will be posting again tmr as I think my post today is alrdy quite packed !

Lastly goodluck to all those friends taking o lvls including my cousin (L) although they would probably be chionging on their revision now and might not see this .

what am I to you ?

2010-10-15T22:14:00.001+08:00

Hi guyz here to bid goodbye. I've started to get the hang of being alone . Im leaving everything behind and just take a break from all-those-shits.

Hmmm and yeah i fell down real hard and fractured my knee on wednesday . Now im immobilized lying on my bed for 24 hours . I guess its just me and my bolster for now , my greatest comfort (:

Oh yes and my nichkhun oppa . Hehehe . Ok think realistically tienling . He's just an idol afterall dont need to go all gaga over him pls. Actually he's not that attractive also, after looking at his shows for long . But 2pm still rocks.

Okie thats all . Dont bother to contact me from now on . hm , I dont think anyone will take the initiative to do that also . So yeah . bye .

hell.

2010-10-13T18:50:00.002+08:00

I HATE YOU . I HATE YOU SO BADLY I FEEL LIKE CRYING .
FUCK MY LIFE . FUCK YOUR LIFE . I DONT WISH TO TALK TO YOU . I DONT WISH TO SEE YOU . WITH YOU AROUND I DONT EVEN SMILE ANYMORE . IM JUST LIKE A LIFELESS PIECE OF SHIT. FUCK YOU AND YOUR SELFISHNESS. I WISH I WASNT EVEN BORN .

2010-10-10T19:13:00.001+08:00

My idol

2010-10-09T23:56:00.006+08:00

Hi my name is Nichkhun ^.^

Omg super cute right ?!?!!?!?!?! Nichkhun from 2pm !!

Never fails to make me smile!! Ahhhhhhhh :D Pls off my song and watch those videos , guranteed to make you smile!! especially if you're in a grumpy mood now !

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!! (MELTS)
SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! ~
hehehehe .

It was when I realised you were unaffected without me , that I learn how to stop missing you .

2010-10-09T00:06:00.004+08:00

Math was seriously...... today . All I can do is . Cross my fingers .

I really need some luck now right now ! Please lah brain can you like function at the right time for the right purpose ?! I was practically thinking/daydreaming of someone right at that point when I was doing my paper and I cant get him out of my fucking mind!!! After all the shits I started really trying the paper out and by that time I was stuck with some ass brain killing questions , I panicked and things got worse when I rushed my graph out using the last 15 mins and my pencil literally went dead on me !!! urgh .

You cant imagine how desperate I was at that point of time and broke down right after the papers were collected . wow doesnt sound credible . It has been such a long time since I ever shed a tear not even when I broke up with that guy . Moreover over this ?! Reason being I would get fking grounded if I fared badly for eoy. yay .

Oh yes and I deleted all my links cause they were really outdated and messy . But im trying to re-link people back bit by bit with their latest url, after exams. I might lost track of some people so pls do tag me your new url for me to link back !!!

Hehehe check her out ! (ps : Taken @ jueying's house )

I look like cock . LOL .

Gave a miss to head to the lib with sw & qw cause I was too lazy to travel so far and kinda tired. Ahhhh cure my lazy bones please . For the sake of my studies . However headed down to lakeside to meet shina and jueying around 4 and slacked awhile @ camelia's house . it was spring macs to market to jueying's house. Caught sight of many friends one of which is choohwaaaaaaaaaaaaa! And he gave me monehhhhhhhhhhhhh ! To buy food cause I said "want to treat me to drinks?" Yes that's good will choohwaaaaaaa for you ! Heeeeeeeeeee ^.^ anddddddddddddddddd intended to do some revision but ended up wasting our whole night eating + eating and eating !!! Swear I would study for real after tonight . Or maybe now . I rlly cant study during the afternoon cause I would probly fall alseep !

Okie enough of talks on books

AND

this is how I look like @ home on a typical sunday night with shinananana .

(drumroll )

Look at the kind of hairstyle I keep at home (gosh )

Math was a killer.

2010-10-07T15:49:00.002+08:00

Can a person love two people at the same time? If yes, why?

2010-10-02T23:32:00.001+08:00

I should be busy studying now but just a lil' effort to keep my blog alive cause I realised my readers are decreasing like way alot . My guesses are that my blog is not interesting enough , lack of updates or that you are all busy studying too ! But if you just happened to chance upon my blog pls do click my adverts if there is, which i skinda seldom, and leave a tag ! I would really appriciate it and that would be my motivation to blog too ! ^^ I've tried to spend a day at home to study and it proved NIL as I had to go somewhere else eventually . Well , heading out didnt do me any good either as I was busy daydreaming ? I day dream everywhere I go ! chance upon many familiar faces and wellllllllll passed my day in a jiffy. And I think i suffer from depression or smth just cant stop munching on food ! Eating would make me feel better I guess. I realise I sound really like an emo kid here . But im not in real life ok !

And tadaaaaaaaaaaaa who says its hard to get shina to take pictures ?!
Beautiful thailand girl ~ hehehe. Caught sight of 2 couples going on a double date tooo ~ Guess who ! LYL <3 TKW + TZH <3 DL . Huahuahua . obvious eunffffff

Look at my cute amandaaaaaaaa !!!! Even shina says she's cute ok ! ^.^

Loveeeeeeeeeeee her lots ! (L)(L) Cant wait to meet up with her immediately after EOY but unfortunately I have to go overseas for a week ! AWWWWWWW. Hopes she doesnt forget me ! 1 week is like such a long period of time !! :@

I really should get going soon . Super duper stressed now I know nothing about geography !! Can someone could like just give me some memory bread so I could just stuff everything in my mind ?! I dont care how fat I get after consuming all those carbohydrates lah !! Everything is just happening too fast pls slow down the clock i need more time !! Should be heading back to study for real after this to make up for the lost revision time supposedly to be spent just now !

GAMBATEH.

2010-09-30T20:36:00.000+08:00

Today was a real unlucky day for me !! Took the initiative to check the time like very 5 minutes when morning was nearing cause i was afraid I would be late for school , as I was taking my english exam today ! Everything was well and I would reach the mrt at exactly 7.16 . BUT then I realised I didnt bring my wallet ! I panicked and quickly called Shina . Unfortunately she was on the train already !!! Called my mum and I walked back to my void deck to take my wallet. I thought I could at least make it to take the 7.22 train . But I realised the was no ezlink card in my wallet ! Hurriedly went to buy standard ticket but they dont take $10 notes and I dont have any small change either . By the time I reach lakeside I was dam moody already. I told myself not to be late for the rest of the week already and there I was . -.-
Saw clebin on the way and it cheered me up like 60% .
My sueyness did not end in the morning , and I actually fell asleep during the english paper2 ! I used the last 15 mins to like scribble some weird answers down . And my summary is the gg.com less than 100 words i think . So one word to smmarize my day . FMD.
Fuck fuck fuck and if I fail english I have to pass 5 other subjects which is a great worry to me now as I confirm fail my chinese and combine humans . Can I just kill myself ?

I dont want to explain. I like to be misunderstood (:

2010-09-28T00:20:00.004+08:00

Aiyayayayay .You know what I tell you what I have this weird feeling now I dont know I am inhumane or what . Indifference describes me now hahaha . I dont feel anything after all those shit my parents screamed at me . Dont know why do they get so upset I dont feel angry I dont feel sad whats there for them to get all excited for ? As if I would feel remorseful. huahuahua.I dont wish to reply you all either i cant be bothered just talk to the wall . whatever Hehehehe. You know whattttttttttttttttttttttt my window is open wide nowwwwww. The black empty sky seems alluring . What if I just tip over the window edge a lil' , heading downwards just following the wind .hehehehe how happy does that sounds . Only thing that could make me feel something nowww i guesssssss. I'll try it some other day, probably when I get really bored of life . kekeke I think its coming real soonnnnnnnnnnnnn im just waiting to get the feel and excitment right . I dont think you understand what im talking about . But its ok . who caresssssssssssssssssss . I think im gonna bathe right now and head to sleep . Hope i'll be feeling better / something tmr . Opps correction today . 00.37 . imma smelly cat . Okay byeeeeeee . Teeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeex :D

2010-09-23T23:13:00.002+08:00

Lets start with yesterdayyyyyyyyyyy. After school headed over to Shina's house to watch some anime. Wanted to make a trip to jp to buy kaiyi's birthday pressie BUT there was a heavy downpour suddenly so my plan was cancelled ): Went home and fell asleep immdiately . Woke up in the evening and called amanda and headed down to jpppppppp to purchase my things . As you know yesterday everyone were busy playing with lanterns right ?! Unfortunately something happened so I had to part with amanda and the lanterns.... Called the blur rendy who was still sleeping and asked to meet up at jp. And while on my way to jp my dam phone went dead so i went back home to charge a lil' and went back again ! Seriously all the walking and rushing was killing me.

ANDDDDDDDD today is kaiyi's birthsday! After school went back home to change and met up with the rest around 330. Decided to watch a movie but all of them were NC16 !!! Except for one show about financials -.- So , the guys bought tickets to a fighting show except for guoliang, jeremy and I ): Went to eat first while jeremy and guoliang managed to get our tickets in the end . Slacked all the way till the movie starts and suey enough we got checked so bobian we have to switch to the other finance show . Boring like fuck !#@@^%#@$!# Aftermath aaron , zhaohui and I secretly went to buy a cake and surprised kaiyi with it ! K lah after that some went home some went safraaa with wesley they allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll. Tired to the max nowwwwwwwwwww . So study or sleep choose which ?

2010-09-20T21:35:00.001+08:00

Sounds fun

Hehehe who wants a hug can come and find me i'll give you one

Lil' update here . keke had been debating whether to post anot . Anyway gonna revise for tmr geog's test tmr! Stay happy even though things may not go the way you want to or life is reallllll bad for you right nowwwwww . There will always be someone for you out there . Cheers ! (;

2010-09-19T22:32:00.001+08:00

Huahuahua . Im so tired I could faint right now. Geeeeez pls just let me die.

Let's start with fridayyyyyyyyy. Went for gerald chalet and it was supaaaaaaaaaaaa boring. Bascially amanda , shubin , me and their boyfs' wanted to make gerald's birthday present but he called and said he wanted to meet us, so of cos being the single one I have to go entertain gerald for awhile while they secretly went to make his pressie . Brought him to eat first and then toliet. And something dam suey happened . The fking toliet bowl exploded ! After I pee-ed, I pressed the flush and suddenly the water increased and overflowed like a fountain just with all the toliet paper in it and maybe some urine . EWW. And it flooded the whole toliet . I was dam embarrassed X.X

wahhh my mom can do that I wanna try it too .

Opps I look ugly. I think I'm look better as a pig

Headed down to pair ris around 6 pm and help to bring all the food into the chalet and blaaaaaaablaaaa

used computer and watch teebeeeeeeeee while waiting for the rest of the people to come which I dont even know who are they . Supppppaaaaaaaa no fun !!! so left for home with amanda and shubing. On the way we literally met 4 mad people! There were some guys infront of us as we were walking and everything was as normal , but as they passed us they suddenly stopped and just freezed there in some kind of weird 'whatzup yaw' movement. And my first reaction was to say wtf and shubing dripped slurpee on her leg LOL. Anywayyyyy we missed the last train so no choice have to take cab home T.T The fare was like $36 cause of midnight charge !? Wtfffffffffffffffff .

Dont know what my son is trying to do . Messaging his cheecks maybe?

Today was supposed to have a happy outing with everybody and kengan with his girlf. BUT in the end he cancelled ! walao ): Nehminddddddddddd. So amanda, jj , shubing, zhenyang, ryan and meee headed to bugis instead. 3 of us kuped to buy a bag for gerald @ zinc . Ryan's friend was working there so got a discount @ 40$ :D huahuahua. The rest of the day was kindaaaaa bored and gloomy lor ): And I realised I love to daydream alot . I was daydreaming the whole day and I always daydream during school and I daydream at home for hours . think and think and think its still about the same thing and no solution at all . Ohyea and today while we were taking the train back to jp , there were 2 guys, i kinda forget if they were foreigners or what , who kept looking at my butt . Amanda and ryan stared at them and told me . So I turned and it was fking obvious that they were looking at my bottom , furthermore they were smirking ! Fuck ley cb fking angry . want look go geylang look la losers bet your penis are so small thats why no girls wanna have sex with you and I know my butt very sexy but look so much for what also cant touch . Fuck your mom.

"mom I like your bag!! " :D

Somebody said my blog is boring T.T Any comments on how to improve ? If really not interesting must tell me leh then I dont wanna blog already ok . huahuahua ok adiosssssss ^^

Gonna talk to my bestfriend nowwwww hehehe . My bestfriend plays the drum thats so cooolllll. Showing off abit here ;p

2010-09-15T21:42:00.001+08:00

HAI . I know its abit boring to talk about school life ok but i'm trying to keep my blog alive! Woke up @ 7 this morning and shina called me and asked to meet , so faster changed and rushed out of house. Met her downstairs and she carried a huge box filled with materials to recycle ! wtf dam heavy and she still managed to carry it to school all by herself. 4 periods of english today is the happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy lor ! Had oral and I think I did fairly well (Y). Andrew brought a super BIG bag of gummy bears and he gave others alot but he refuse to give me !! Wtf like super bias lor ! :@
me : why you give others you dont want give me?! You give Shina so much !
Andrew : because Shina is prettier than you.
Fuck him to descriminate ugly people . Anywayyyyyyyyyyy after school went to super bowl macs with lea and shihui ! Went to shihui's house first to take her things and she locked me outside her house cause her sister is shy to see me ): Had lunchhhhhhhhhhhhh and intended to study but ended up talking all the way ~
Headed home with leaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa after that (;
Gonna head to books now , adiossssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss !

When you say “I love you”, you are making a promise with someone else’s heart.

2010-09-14T22:04:00.004+08:00

Things I like about school
- Love geography lessons cause its conducted in an air-conditionered class and I get to sit beside choohwaaaaaa! Joker + good person to confide in (Y)
- Looking forward to english lessons everyweek cause , english lessons = free period . YAY .
- Love chinese lessons cause em3 class = no homework = less test = free period also . Get to talk to shuwen + charlene + jude .
- Like to sit with andrew cause he always bring food for me . BUT he always have food particles stucked in his teeth ewww. (Sorry)
- Like recess . who doesnt .
- Like shihui, shina, kaiwei, kaiyi,clebin and all my friends around me ^^

4 random things about today :
Rendy said hi to me this morning ! kekeke made a new friend (Y)
Miss quah told the class she dreamt about me . Omg . thats so weird why would a teacher dream about me ?! Besides I hardly interact with her . Anyway she told me she prayed for me and thats good . LOL.
I forgot to pass up my essay for ss class test and miss quah said it was probably because she prayed for me thats why I would discover that I had not handed in my essay.
People touched my hair like 1000x
Ok bai .
What can I say ? Leave it all to fate.

I needed to know that I meant something, anything to you. But what I got was nothing.

2010-09-10T23:09:00.002+08:00

Today is friday and I haven touch a single shitass homework >: STRESSED . Met up with les today at the usual place and decided to train down to bugis . Recieved a msg from gerald on the way and we decided to stop at lakeside to meet up with gerald and les's boyf. Makan makan some snacks at 7-11 while waiting and it took prolly a full hour before we started on our journey again . Ok I did something which I totally regretted . >: I felt my hair was too less so I decided to try on some extentions . After wasting a good deal of the person's time I didnt really want it cause the clip-on extensions were kinda painful to my scalp . BUT I dont know lah . I just bought it . and it costs $30 . Totally regretted to the max . Just hope that it might come in handy some day which is unlikely to happen! AHHHH . fml . Anyone want to buy ? I am willing to sell it for $25! Anyway dinned @ the food court there and slacked before heading back to jp . Ate lailai @ jp again ! Les treat ! Glutton me . Had a game of car racing at the arcade before heading homeeeeeee .
Was in a real bad mood just now pobably cause of purchasing the wrong thing and i dont know why so I flared up at les . Sorry love . T.T

2010-09-09T18:10:00.003+08:00

Heyheyhey .
I dreamt of something pretty weird . I was in love with a girl and she likes me too and I was certain we would get together but in the end I caught her holding hands with my bother and I cried . The dream felt supaaaa real , like it happened to me before. The feelings, pain, tears and everything felt factual. And the person in the dream was someone I know in real life . Ok imma bored now so just post randomly . Supposed to get my homeworks done today but I just spent the whole day sleeping eating and lazing around . So yeah wait till I get back to school and realise I am failing all my tests and cant understand a single shit then i'll start saying fml ok . I really cant study at home right now cause my house is still under renovation and there's only a singular matress and my lappy , three of us in my room only so I cant possibly study with all the distrations going on . Ok imma talking crap around here . Cya guyz when school reopens yaw . Really cant wait to look like a monk again . monks rock on.

2010-09-08T10:12:00.004+08:00

WAZZUP YAW !

Had an advance birthsday celebration for nicoleeeeeeeee yesterday !
Wore supaaaa clown clothes and got negative comments about it )':
Look like going songkah i tell you!!
Anywayyyyyyy met up with szechyi , yeeling , shihui , felica , nicole and jueyingggg.
Headed down to imm for breakfast at macs first then to the garden garden on top dont know whats that called ok . Noob me .
Cam-whored around there for like 1234567 hours !

Headed to the toliet aftermath and as the toilet was pretty small so it seemed to an auntie that I was queueing up for the cubical , which I was not . And she used that coarse fucked up voice to 'ask' me if I was queueing up and I said no . It was still ok but when I turned around and saw another woman giving me that 'wtf is wrong with you bitch' expression , I flared and said to her give me that fuck face? And tadaaaaa she stared at me for the whole time until I went out of the toilet. Really have a low tolerence of people crticizing me in public or whatever you call it.

Headed down to cheveron for some bowling , pool and arcade. That place was like quiet only! We had the whole place to ourselves . But seriously the arcade like laoya only all the games were like from the 80's ! Nothing exciting!

Cab down to lakeside and bought a mini mooncake along with some party poppers?
Waited for camelia to come down and she brought along her dog !!!! DAM CUTE .
Kekeke and it licked my toes and face ^^
But the rest were scared of the dog !!! why sia dogs are so cuteeeeeeeee !
Headed down to jueying's house and waited for our presents !
Kinda weird she would want to give us presents out of no reason .....
Anyway the rest went home while szechyi, yeeling & I went jp go walkiewalkie .

And nowwwww imma at amanda's house eating egg and watching teebee while she is playing with my hair and imma afraid that she would pull off my hair and we just caught cats and dogs in the afternoon with charity, wanyi , gabriel and edwin which was a total waste of my money cause amanda and I was late in meeting them thus we caught the show when it was aready showing halfway and I absolutely caught no balls but i know the cats were cute and the show was lame . okthxbai.

2010-09-01T22:39:00.003+08:00

We’ll say goodbye and you’ll walk away the way you always do. Then we’ll both pretend that nothing happened and we never knew each other. Because that’s what happens. You find people, and then you lose them. New people go , old friends stay.

HEYYYYHIHO.
Was out with my son ,gerald , les and jj ! hehe dammmmm happy to see them . ^^
But my son dress up like one karang guni ! chey .
Headed to clarke quayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy to buy sticky . only ! -.-
Acid drops niceeeeeeeeeeee . Supaaaaaaaaaa love sour .

Say hello this is my son .

Thought my phone spoiled in the morning ! scared the hell out of me and i keep banging it on the wall . Ended up its only battery flat . wasted my whole day feeling angry !
A 10 km dragonboat competition on saturday >; anybody wanna go in my place ? Have a free tshirt and a can of beer . Forced to join by my coach but imma lazy girl i really dont wanna go so saddddddddddddd ):

Fate is what I believe in .

2010-08-28T22:11:00.004+08:00

Life couldnt be perfect could it ? Being the happiest person surrounded with loads of love from friends, family and soulmate leading a carefree life without a spark of distress or loneliness . Why do things have to change ? When people start to get bored of each other, when the same routine repeats and there is no excitment or curousity anymore when decieving and jealousy occurs. I hope for happiness. It came just now but it went back . Today when I met him everything felt alive again. Memories kept inside me came back to life. Thank god for that one last time I felt so happy again . It felt as though the past is repeating itself once more. But I guess once is enough and im contented . Time to move on and I will never look back for we aren't meant to be .

We all fall back to the same pattern , same routine .

2010-08-27T20:59:00.008+08:00

I cant explain what im feeling right now . Life seems mundane . The more I care the less I show . Results sucks . Passed by 1 mark for chinese passed by 3 marks for amath. Tienling needs to study laaaaaaaaaaaa . Be yourself day is around the corner i wanna dress up this year cause ive never done that for the past 2 years thats why I wanna go shopping desperately but I went shopping with shina for the past 2 days and I dare not try anything on as ive not enough money which is literally killing me and hope i have not gain any weight because i did not attend any training for the past week as im really lazy but I wish to eat durian now . I have this mixed up and frustrated feeling inside me which i dont have in the past after a relationship but i have now I hope it is getting better because it really makes me think that im emo and i dont like it but I kinda like my life now as everybody around me is happy and that makes me happy too . This is a very boring blog and I have no idea on what to talk about and everybody must be thinking I cant be bothered to enter this site anymore but now if you are still reading this means you care for me and my life so thanks alot please click on my nuffnang adverts and leave a tag to let me know you've been here and someone still appriciates what I am doing thats all for now and I would appreciate it very much if you have any advice on growing thick hair or preventing hair loss which you can tell me on my formspring as i would very much like to chat with you also and I've just spend a dam hour and half on writing this post which might only take you like 5 minutes to finish reading this chunk lastly I wish to see someone ive been hoping to see for the past 1 month since we broke up but we are just purely friends right now and he probably have a bunch of girls flocking by his side right now call me dumb or what cause I think I really am .

weary .

2010-08-24T22:59:00.004+08:00

My eyes are so fucking pain and red now that i could only open 1/4 of my eyes .
Thanks love you contact lenses .

For once, I’d just like to know what it feels like to love myself.

2010-08-15T12:06:00.003+08:00

Beyond description .

2010-08-13T22:27:00.004+08:00

I was walking home in the afternoon today when I forgot that it was the 7th month .
So , I used a shortcut which was to walk onto the grass to the other side. While walking halfway , I suddenly remembered my friend telling me that Im not supposed to walk on grass during the 7th month or ghosts will come and haunt me or smth . Suddenly , a great force pulled my bag behind . And I fucking screamed in my head . I thought it was ghosts pulling me back . Then i slowly turned and it was kaiwei ! I was darn relieved!
Since when did I become so superstitious?!

Basically spent my whole day eating at mos burger ! Omfg . Imagine the fats in the burger .
Went down there to support some friends working there .
Had some beef rice burger meal plus clam chowder soup and frozen strawberries !
I think there's smth wrong with the milk tea. Kaiwei and I had TERRIBLE stomach ache after drinking it . Wtf . But the strawberries were delicious man . It has cold sweet creamy fillings inside ! Just one bite and everything explodes in your mouth .
And and I saw huang jin lun ! Handsome to the max!!
He stood infront of me and I didnt friggin recognise him until Kaiwei told me !

Sigh . Kb training tmrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr . im tired .

I am friendless too.
Can someone friend me ?
Can someone care about me ?
Can someone not pangseh me ?
Can someone ask me out?
)':

Im strange ain't I ?

I suck .

2010-08-08T22:39:00.004+08:00

Heyyyyy hi ho !
Caught the movie salt todayyyyyy. The fighting moves were nice , but I totally dont understand what was the moral of the story -.- No link at all . Or I dont understand their english .
Caught no balls.

Boring day spent @ jp againnnnnnnnnnnnn ! Lifeless right .
Where got people like me nothing better to do always head down to jp one !
But brought several items , pretty contented .

Saw some familiar faces unexpectedly . Urghhh totally make me go starring into blank space and thinking about the past . And whoever talks to me gets no response. Like an idiot only ):
And and people, the hainanese chicken rice at jp 3rd level kopitiam is fucking nice !!!!!
I think that was the best I've eaten so far. Really thumbs up , considering I hate chicken rice .

Wtffffff I just missed 11:11 by 1 minute ! No wish for me today ):
But I really need some luck now .

People usually forget those who treats them well but love those who wont give a damn to them .
Why is that so ?
)':

Peace.

2010-08-06T22:34:00.015+08:00

Seriously going out with amanda can make me die .
I think I've to upload hundreds of photos and painstakingly view every photo and take out the cmi ones!!
Met up with amanda arnd 3pm bought bubbletea & off to shubing's house .
Comp comp-ed @ there and talkedddddddddddd . I cant believe I was so foolish back then! omgoddddddddddddddddddd . Faints.
And saw shubing's hugeee pluto! Makes me think of my pluto at home too ^^
Why does everybody give pluto softtoy to their lovers?!
Sat there rotting while amanda and shubing did their art work .
Took 1234567 hours before they were finally done ! Headed for jp in search of my wallet & shoes. My flowery love tore at the back ): Saw the shoes I wanted but never bring enough $$$$ . Tsk! A wasted trip . Walked arnd & jokes !
Kfc for dinner & homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed !
hehe really happy today. Like finally !
What can I say ? Laughing all day . Im contented. No guy . No troubles. No shit.
Loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee them (L)

2010-08-05T00:34:00.000+08:00

Got this huge blister on my feet which is killing the shit out of me .
This is the consequence for not wearing socks to run! How foolish .
Was supposed to meet Guojie @ 3pm today and friggin waited for him till 7pm!
Went down to find him amd just slacked around pinoeer.
No fun at all !
I think its like walking exercise. Stroll and stroll ~
Idk how im gonna train tmr with my blister ):
Tmr is all running and shits , should I wear double socks of smth .
I think my eyes are getting swollen already , got to catch a wink !
Aidos ~

Mad .

2010-08-01T22:11:00.004+08:00

Headed out with Amanda darling today , cause staying @ home just makes me think of stuffs like crazy!
Met her at aprox 3 then went to makan makan at jp first .
Headed to lib for awhile to clear her art -.-
Cant believe she took art as a subject when her drawings were like cmi ! hehe
Helped her draw abit and I realised I dont have a talent for art either .

Went down to arena for pool with chunboon and vilson .
Played few rounds . Everyone was like quiet ~ Cause this was the first time im meeting chunboon!
As I am a super friendly person , went to talk to him first lah.
LOL

Chunboon went home first , i think he only come play free pool -.-
Slacked @ a void deck to talk & some other stuffs . Two love birds there , im like extra only !Then the vilson went home while amanda and I went back to jp for dinner ! Down to artpark(?) there to complete amanda's art. Super windyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ~ Freezing already!

Can someone tell me what to do? please.

you're gone ?

2010-07-30T21:13:00.006+08:00

True love comes quietly , without banners or flashing lights.

Met lesbyyyyyyyyy today . ^^
So long nvr see her already ! Finally met her and went round jp looking for my shoes .
I want to change shoes desperately. Aftermath to lib for awhile to wait for kengan .
Guess who I saw today ?
Zoe , shina , kaiwei , yuxian, fuyao & co . & zhendong's friends I got to know earlier last week & some others!
Make my mood happy only ~ Hehe
Soon gerald came & we went to macs for dinner !
And wtf gerald was the first person who called me nan ren puo (tomboy) ?!
Sad only larrrrrr .
Walked home with kengan and amanda ~

This would help me wash away you .
For that moment in my mind .

You left a scar.

Rejection , thats what everyone's afraid of isnt it ?
I want to talk to you , but I .dont. dare.
I am afraid you would find me a bore.
I am afraid you would ignore me .
I am afraid one day you will not be able to remember who I am anymore .

I wonder at how long it’ll be, before I see you again. I wait. And I wonder.
I wait for every day to pass. And i wait for every night to arrive. Cause I guess the only way to find you is through my dreams .
Goodnight people .

(:

2010-07-29T22:08:00.003+08:00

I love running .
Feeling the coolness of the air
Hearing the whistling of the strong wind as it dashes across my ears.
It just knocks out whatever that has been lingering on my mind.
It knocks out all emotions.
Then when it reaches a state where i could not feel the strain on my legs, the heaviness of my breath, the impact of my weight thrusting towards the ground
I get lost in my own world.
I feel carefree.
(:

Jealousy kills .

2010-07-28T22:39:00.003+08:00

Everytime I close my eyes i dream of you.
My sub-concious mind wants to keep those happy moments alive.

Finally went to cut my hair todayyyyyyy with B & felicia !
Now its friggin thin like a layer of paper !
Ive been avoiding eating salty stuffs to prevent hairfall already but my hair is still dropping like mad ! :@
Maybe im too stressed .
Anyway , B's hairstylist has bad attitude and anyhow cut her fringe till it's way above her brow. I think she's gonna cry already .
Met kuangyi, yingliang, zhaoyong, sinyee , mingai & unknown @ spring & bballed .
And i anyhow play & used violence in the game. Like laoya only -.-
Test tmrrrrrrrrrrrr . Life's boring .

I comitted a sin today.
Forgive me god.

2010-07-25T01:30:00.004+08:00

Hellooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
Had a great friday & saturday this week!
Out with Jackson, michelle , fadio & girlz for night movie @ gv !
Dinned @ kopitiam first before heading for the movie, Inception
Jackson, michelle and fadio actually ate @ fish & co. without treating us!
The show was pretty confusing cause the people are jumping from dreams to dreams .
But overall it was quite exciting if you could understand it . Its somehow scary not being able to differenciate between living in ur dream and reality cause dreams appear to be so real !
But the best part was the guy was able to be with his dead wife happily in his dreams . How good , what if I could do that then i could be with jh forever ~ LOL im mad.

Down to orchard with amanda , billsion, shubing, keng an , ryan , shirley & gerald yesterday.
Met up with amanda @ noon for haircut first ! Then met up with those guyz and off to cineleisure ~
Caught the 5.30 movie blood pledge ! Off to makan makan first then a game of pool .
Like weird only got a group of ppl diaodiao us, turns out to be ryan and gerald fren LOL

The blood pledge was like scary . Suddenly the dead girl's face with blood and all would pop out of nowhere . And the screaming is IMBA de lor .
Friggin loud make me shout for nothing only!
But the show was quite nice . All about friendship ~
After show pei-ed shubing to find chocolates then headed to jp !
Kekeke ryan & gerald scared also still dare laugh @ me !
Went to kopitiam for dinner then i left first .
Amanda darling sent me <3
Thanks everybody for cheering me up cause i was kinda mooodyyyyyyyyy @ the end .

omg all the pics like fail only!!! cause nobody wanna take proper pic with me ):
Love yesterdayyyyy cause my wish actually came true a teeny bit !!! hehe
Happy me ^^

2010-07-21T23:15:00.005+08:00

My class have been going crazy over satanism !
Basically these are what i found on the net of Lucifer or otherwise the fallen angel.

It was believed that satan could bring fame and wealth to a person , but in exchange of some kind of offering by the person . Like blood?
There are rumors that many people in the music industry are actually worshipping satan .
Well , SHINee came out with a new album named Lucifer!

Anyway , watching videos about satanism in school the past few days was freaking me out .
Spent my day in school and jp with shihui , nurul and veron afterwards!
Nurul actually bluffed me that her bf is Lee gi kwang! tsk and i actually believed.
I know kinda stupid larrrr cause im not really up to date to kpop stuffs already!
Was on the way back home when i met zhendong & yaohui @ bball court!
Brightens up my day to see my hubby(fake)! LOL
Slacked there awhile & homeeeeeeed!
And I just realised im starting to turn into an introvert. ):
Mainly I just kept quiet most of the time. And im constantly daydreaming about nothing . Just staring into blank space. And now i find it hard to conduct a conversation with people , which I do very easily in the past ! So I just end up ignoring them or smth . Thats why people are telling me I very dao nowadays !

Omg how how howwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. I must try to laugh more!

There're tons of shits things I wanna do ! Like uncompleted homework that are piling up! Stressssss~ But now push those aside coz im dead beat . Nights !

Goodbye jianhong love.

2010-07-18T21:42:00.004+08:00

Just
hang
in
there
tienling.
It
will
be
over
soon.
Time
heals
every
wound.
I
am
strong.

2010-07-15T22:28:00.004+08:00

Today i felt my legs dissociated from my body.
It started with running 10 rounds for being late for school & 16 rounds around field during training !
I pratically cant feel my legs when I walk .
Today's class was talking about christanity.
Many famous celebrities are actually worshipping satan that was why they got fame & riches?
& my classmate said that you would need to offer something in return that was why Lady Gaga amputated her leg ! andand the sign \m/ which I thought meant rock on or i love you or whatever is supposedly mean to curse someone when you point it @them !

Anyway , caught despicable me on sundayyyyyy !
Our necks were almost breaking cause bi & I sat in the first row !
The show was friggin cute la but it is a cartoon. & cartoons just doesnt seem that nice to watch !
Next show shall be blood pledge which I think Im gonna catch it with szechyi they all or what! :D
Yayayayayayayay .

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEkkkkk.

He stare you .

Look @ this guy :

Chenkaiyi.
16 years old .

I couldnt really find any pic i took tgt with you , so just make deal with this .
This pic was like taken super long time ago during the march holidays.
Mr cky , we've known each other for about 2years plus ?
Didn't really had much memories of the past but I could remember the period most vivdly was when I hang out with you & clebin almost everyday last year !
& the best part was I didnt have to bring any moneyyyyyyyyyyyy with me cause both of you would just treat me to everything ! & when I moved to bukit batok, phone , you & me would always travel home tgt cause i really hate taking the bus alone ! & there were times where i had all those problems in relationships you would listen & advice me . Then i had a huge quarrel with cheryl & co. this year. You stood by me . That was when I saw who were my true friends. Sounds funny but still , true. Then we started drifting apart due to ur o lvls this year . We seldom contact each other anymore . I could still remember when I shifted house recently & you didnt know about it . One day you called me and asked where am I and if I wanted to take bus home tgt ! I was really shocked? It didnt occur to me you would still remember .
There are still much much much more things I wanna add but I dont know how to put them into words & it would be too lengthy . So , just wanna say thanks for being there all these while.
Although you may not seem so friendly to me on the outside as we are always bickering but you are the best of my friends to me (:

2010-07-10T12:16:00.003+08:00

A dream is a wish your heart makes when you’re fast asleep.
In dreams you will lose your heartaches.Whatever you wish for, you keep.
I dreamt of you & me last night, where i could gaze at you until time ends.
It was wonderful. Everything.
You know , I dont wish to be so pessimistic anymore.
I dont wish to be so reserved. It just dampens others mood too.
I seriously dont know what i mean to you anymore. The things that you said.
What do they mean anyway ? Do they even have value ? Or were those just passing remarks to please me ?
And those promises at the start become we became an item? I just began to realise they meant nothing.
So many sorries , what for? Are they meant to make me feel better?
Well , they didnt . It just makes me feel worst because i know history is gonna repeat itself.
Im gonna leave you aside for now . To let my heart stop grieving for awhile, to let me be the way i used to be before you came.
I'll be waiting , but until you're ready.

2010-07-06T20:15:00.004+08:00

Well school life is pretty much the same.
I've been wondering.
What does dreams signifies?

Does dreams represent what we believe or what we hope for?

what if u dreamt of someone whom u used to love?

Been out with amanda, gerald & billson ! lol!
Had a fun time with les ! Love. :$

And, Shina was over to my house last night !
webbie cam-ed ! & hell loads of fun.
Recieved a call from baby kekeke.
Hearing his voice seriously made my day (L) ^^

Heading out with cleb & valen & maybe others this fri ! yayayayyayay
Met les again this afternoon, she didnt have to go to school!
Met her & ahhao @ macs .
Aftermath left we 2 to slack & talk as usual .
Was down to the dumps today ):

It has been ages since i last saw bi .
Met him today for a tiny while & i felt kinda awkward .
Well , dont know.
Just feeling all mixed up of emotions .
When can i ever get to see him for proper?
I hate this feeling , seriously .
It just clings onto me all the time making me feel all cranky and emotional . wtf.

2010-07-03T17:55:00.003+08:00

Well hi (:
Life's gonna be boring for me from now on i guess !
Had been studying real hard since school reopened & finally took a breather ytd .
It was photo taking after school then bus-ed back home with ky, phone & shannon.
Headed out in the evening & met up with huiwen , yeeling & szechyi!
Caught night movie , eclipse !
The movie was pretty nice especially when jacob looked so handsome !!!
The main climax of the movie was the fighting part (Y)
But i hate bella literally . She was like a two- timer in the movie.
She kissed both edward & jacob!!!! wtf.
After movie walked around for a tad & headed home .

I saw you . I wasn't supposed to feel that way . But I did .
But that wasn't love. It was memories.

2010-06-28T22:46:00.006+08:00

A heartbreak,
it hits suddenly,
slowly wrapping around the heart it pulls ,
so heavily it just sinks down, but to nowhere .
Every breath,
another strike,
another plunge.
So worn out ,
so overbearing,
so painful ,
so silent .
It just breaks me down .

2010-06-25T16:54:00.004+08:00

BOOOO

Out with B this afternoonnn.
walked arnd for afew hrs & lunched @ mos burger !
was bored to the max seriously so headed home .
Heading for cousin's 21st burfday chalet l8r on .
My mood is really down these few days hoping l8r would cheer me up ! :D
adios ~

2010-06-24T23:19:00.005+08:00

Why do people think it’s okay for them to do horrible things
as long as they apologize afterwards?

Hi .
Out with amanda & her bf for a wee bit today .
Makes me think about baby .

Phone asked me to blog about him, so there .
Phone is finally back to sg after being away for the entire hols !
Phone is great
Phone is a phone
tienling must wear thicker contacts
Let's go watch movie again with cleb , ky & phone !

Gosh didn't know he was so lame!

Oh and , pls help click on my advert & tag ok ?
I need motivation to blog ! seems like no one's readin' it now ):

Often, we don’t know the true value of a moment until it becomes a memory.

2010-06-23T23:54:00.004+08:00

It was my first year with bibi on sunday (:

Wanted to blog for the past few days but my new phone has problems connecting to the pc suite !!! Seriously pissed off . Finally found another alternative by transfering my photos to my old phone via bluetooth & then upload it into my lappy . Really a hassle ! tsk . :@

Talk about yesterday . Was actually waiting to meet bi but @ the end he cmi.
So went to have my napnap @ home . Woke up by kaiyi's call & off to safra .
Met up w cleb there also . Watched them play dota for a tad then pool-ed .
Yay it's been so long since i went out w them ! :D x10000

Amanda called & decided to meet up w her & her bf etc @ safra too .
But cleb, kaiyi & I went to meet weixuan first . Afterthat slacked arnd w amanda & co. before they went off . 2nd round of pool w weixuan !
Next up his fc friends came & I was bored - to - the - max .

Headed for dinner afterthat . Weixuan's indian fren was like cute sia everything dunno dunno . kekeke. Then cleb said because my face was too fierce tht's why he is scared to reply me !
Asked me to smile wide w my shiny teeth when i talk to ppl -..-
Met amanda w her bf again @ safra. Then the whole lot went to carpark for some business then I headed home !

Today was out w joey to city hall ! Walked arnd @ the mall first . Then went to buy a pair of low heels as my high heels were killin me !!
Finally ventured to marina square & had our japanese ramen @ i forgotten the name . Nextnext was ice cream @ anderson's. yumzyumz .
Headed for sasa & the sales woman rambled on & on about their cosmetics. Was super paiseh when we left without buying anything !!

Walked for tons of hours

Hi chocolate man .

Hols are coming 2 an end !!! ):
Baibai .

2010-06-20T22:05:00.003+08:00

Today is a very special day to me (:

2010-06-18T22:44:00.004+08:00

Outttt w valen to bugis yesterday! Had a really tight budget due to lack of $$ !!!! Eventually bought 2 pathetic pieces of clothe . Pathetic cause i went home & tried them out & it turn out to super uglyyyyyy ! Urghhh . totally cmi until i wanna tear them . Its like a total waste of my precious $$$ !!

Well , it was a pretty boring shopping trip . Finally got a taste of being penniless ! No food , no clothes . Nothing . totally unbearable . Was feeling rather dejected so off to home early .
Actually i kinda like staying at home . harhar

Had training todayyy. Fking woke up @ 530 cause it was raining for the past few days hence we need to have a make up water training !!! Had a serious headache while taking the bus . Seriously lack of sleep ! Training was zai to the max . Tired tired tired . Faster headed home & bathed & changed . Wanted to just eat , watch teebee , pom & sleep ordeiii.

But i still went out & met darling amanda ^^
Was off to pool @ arena w amanda & fren ! My skills were like down down down (N) tsk !
Arnd 6 plus went off due to boredommmmmm ~ Headed down to jp & wanted to have dinner . But everywhere were packed like mad ! & some fkers didn't want to give up their seats after finish eating !! :@ Had me waiting there like an idiotttt . ): had pepper dinner finally (Y)
redonculously delicious !

Then bused down to shubing house to pass her things & homeeeed !
muscles sore naoooo & tired! but i juz can't get to sleep @ night .
My eyebags are like growing bigger & im having dark circles ..... ):

2010-06-16T17:43:00.001+08:00

Fucker . Have you ever thought of my feelings ?